Tuesday, July 7, 2015

I know you think that I shouldn't still love you, 
Or tell you that.
But if I didn't say it, well I'd still have felt it 
where's the sense in that? 

I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder 
Or return to where we were 

I will go down with this ship 
And I won't put my hands up and surrender 
There will be no white flag above my door 
I'm in love and always will be 

I know I left too much mess and 
destruction to come back again 
And I caused nothing but trouble 
I understand if you can't talk to me again 
And if you live by the rules of "it's over" 
then I'm sure that that makes sense 

I will go down with this ship 
And I won't put my hands up and surrender 
There will be no white flag above my door 
I'm in love and always will be 

And when we meet 
Which I'm sure we will 
All that was there
Will be there still 
I'll let it pass 
And hold my tongue 
And you will think 
That I've moved on.... 

I will go down with this ship 
And I won't put my hands up and surrender 
There will be no white flag above my door 
I'm in love and always will be 

I will go down with this ship 
And I won't put my hands up and surrender 
There will be no white flag above my door 
I'm in love and always will be 

I will go down with this ship 
And I won't put my hands up and surrender 
There will be no white flag above my door 
I'm in love and always will be

This song sounds a lot like something that happened to me:
I was married to a guy and asked for a divorce because of the things I did and felt unsatisfied with everything. He was really crushed about it and it totally tore him apart. We had spent a few months apart after that, and in that time, he decided that the only way to get over me was to have nothing to do with me. Truth is, he was so indifferent to me that it just killed me, and I realized that I couldn't live without him. I became just as depressed and messed up as he had been, but I refused to tell him how I felt, because I knew that I didn't deserve to even tell him that I still loved him. Eventually, I couldn't bear the pain anymore, and I confessed my feelings...the first 2 verses of this song are almost exactly what I had said to him when I started out the conversation. He had still had some feelings for me, but he just couldn't take me back, because I had hurt him so badly. A lot has happened since then, but I still think about him everyday. We still have feelings for each other, but neither of us would ever admit it. This song just seems to spell out my relationship to a tee.

Its only been like a couple of months but like i said, im not a person who easily falls in love with anyone.

I gave him this song, just to get that peace of mind. Dapat la jugak kepuasan tu..because it includes everything that I have to say.

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