ramadhan tibe lagi! time for terawihs and buka puasa's and sahur's and lots of amal ibadat's haha. im looking forward to terawihs though, dunno why. bende lain tak heran sangat, dont want to indulge myself with too much food as ive got a gain goal to follow through.
ahh well, i hope all my terawihs will be in air conditioned places, bukan memilih, sesungguhnye mmg sebagai sorang islam aku patut terima apa yang ada sebab air cond tu bukan keperluan, tetapi kebiasaan. but bagi aku, if thats what makes me comfortable and focused, why not kan, being comfy is one of the keys to being khusyuk anyways.
selamat menyambut bulan ramadhan yang mulia ni everyone! setan dah takde, so if youre doing all the bad stuf that just means youre simply just a bad person ;p nevertheless you should try to change and be good during this holy month. who knows it might just stick.
Friday, July 20, 2012
Tuesday, July 17, 2012
woi
so ive been cut off from DH's line of business because according to him i am lazy and stubborn ; p i should be happy no? cz i can just relax and not have to do a thing? but weird, i dont feel that way, and the reason for that is because i think he actually just couldnt stand me nagging when we dont share the work. ape la, manje sungguh. haha. its not like i nag all the time, only just recently, because i have anemia, and it makes me feel super tired sometimes, even just by walking, which makes him think that i prefer to sleep rather than helping him.
seriously, i dont mind doing work, cz i wasnt raised to be lazy, i started ironing at 8 or nine, mind you. cleaning the house and stuff, its what my parents taught me to do. of course there are times when i am lazy to do anything, but how i was brought up makes me have that small feeling of being responsible, terutamanya when bende2 tu specifically berkaitan dengan aku, like my room, or my working space, etc.
DH, it hurts when you think that im purposely being lazy and not wanting to help you ;( sob sob. omg its like totally my job to be helping you. because we are family. we are starting our own family and we had all the help we needed with starting the business and now that were doing well for ourselves why listen to others on things that we dont have to do?
if youre worried about me not being able to continue my studies or whatever, you really dont have to be, studying is lifelong la, nnt ada rezeki nak belajar pegi la belajar sampai bengkak otak. ni masa aku tgh semangat nak tolong tolak aku tepi plak. tak remaja la macam ni bro, haha. makan gaji ni bukan boleh selesai masalah pun. nak niaga, niaga jela, takut sangat nnt kalau ada anak susah nak tanggung la whatever. i personally think that anak bukan masalah. nak duit macam2 boleh buat. paling senang niaga la.
pasal buat nasi dagang ni pulak, kalau la sememangnye hakikat hidup yang orang terengganu je boleh buat nasi dagang, kenapa laaaaa suruh aku blaja buat dari awal? aku ni orang modern, mesti la buat cara modern. sbb nasi dagang ni, in my opinion, senang gile je nak buat. yang lecehnye nak kene basuh periuk banyak. tu pun tak banyak mana la skarang dah rempah buat kat mardi kan. siap pack bagai. bau rempah tu kurang sbb aku tunggu sampai betul2 garing, taknak bau dia hilang, takyah tunggu sampai garing. senang je. santan, kalau dah masak menggelegak tu, camane laa nak basinyeee. kalau basi nasi tu pun, sbb letak dalam bekas tertutup. baru ni ok je sampai esok tak basi hok yg letak dalam mangkuk. pakcik DH pun cakap bende kalau nak pegi big scale, cara kene ubah bagi senang tu yang orang buat kitchen masak makanan besar besaran, lab bagi try and error new ways of preparing to ease the workload, orang kene cari untuk buat kerja, kalau tak mcm tu je la. jual blakang rumah sampai bila2. itu pun boleh hidup tau, cuma duit nye camtu jela. nak duit lebih kene la usaha lebih.
tapi who am i to say things kan, im just the girl whos lazy and always complaining and stubborn ;p tula. skarang tak suka plak aku degil, dulu time aku kata takyah la kawen dgn aku sbb aku ni degil, mak aku cakap dia pun tak larat nak layan perangai aku ni plak dia. aku ingat mak aku cakap,
'ntah2 baru kawen dah mati sakit jantung dengan perangai u ni' and dont tell me i din mention this to you ok DH, because i did many2 times, and you were like, takpe i nak duduk dgn u je.
dah, skarang duduk la dgn i betul2. pressure ni sume kejap je, later when were all good then we can get our own place or whatever. people might say its impossible or cuba nak tunjuk kat you keadaan malaysia skarang ni that people who dont earn enough can never buy a house, takpela, biar je dorang. kita usaha la smpi boleh. its just natural for that to happen, because people are what they are, and since its family it happens cz they care and of course they want the best for you, DH.
but sometimes caring too much can be disastrous. i made the same mistakes my mom did, which is to tell on DH. sorry DH, but it happens when you dont have a mom to talk to. otherwise i guarantee you only my mom would know, and she would know better of not to menyindir and stuff. or maybe she wouldnt, hahahaha.
ahh tapi takpe la, just to please you, esok aku g ah tanya pasal blaja tu. walaupun hati aku berat snarnye nak blaja ni sbb aku dah plan lain tapi tetibe im being pushed away, booo ;'(
blaja pun blaja la. jgn marah plak kalau aku aktif kat uni nanti.
oh oh pastu aku nak kututt mengutut sikit la kan, hahahaha, theres this one blogger, who really fascinates me, dia tulis in almost all of her posts bragging about her bf and how they dine out at expensive places every time, and tetibe she comes up with a post that people who brag about what they have, actually has nothing to brag about? apekah? mungkin dia terlupa kot about all the past few hundred posts she made ;p
seriously, i dont mind doing work, cz i wasnt raised to be lazy, i started ironing at 8 or nine, mind you. cleaning the house and stuff, its what my parents taught me to do. of course there are times when i am lazy to do anything, but how i was brought up makes me have that small feeling of being responsible, terutamanya when bende2 tu specifically berkaitan dengan aku, like my room, or my working space, etc.
DH, it hurts when you think that im purposely being lazy and not wanting to help you ;( sob sob. omg its like totally my job to be helping you. because we are family. we are starting our own family and we had all the help we needed with starting the business and now that were doing well for ourselves why listen to others on things that we dont have to do?
if youre worried about me not being able to continue my studies or whatever, you really dont have to be, studying is lifelong la, nnt ada rezeki nak belajar pegi la belajar sampai bengkak otak. ni masa aku tgh semangat nak tolong tolak aku tepi plak. tak remaja la macam ni bro, haha. makan gaji ni bukan boleh selesai masalah pun. nak niaga, niaga jela, takut sangat nnt kalau ada anak susah nak tanggung la whatever. i personally think that anak bukan masalah. nak duit macam2 boleh buat. paling senang niaga la.
pasal buat nasi dagang ni pulak, kalau la sememangnye hakikat hidup yang orang terengganu je boleh buat nasi dagang, kenapa laaaaa suruh aku blaja buat dari awal? aku ni orang modern, mesti la buat cara modern. sbb nasi dagang ni, in my opinion, senang gile je nak buat. yang lecehnye nak kene basuh periuk banyak. tu pun tak banyak mana la skarang dah rempah buat kat mardi kan. siap pack bagai. bau rempah tu kurang sbb aku tunggu sampai betul2 garing, taknak bau dia hilang, takyah tunggu sampai garing. senang je. santan, kalau dah masak menggelegak tu, camane laa nak basinyeee. kalau basi nasi tu pun, sbb letak dalam bekas tertutup. baru ni ok je sampai esok tak basi hok yg letak dalam mangkuk. pakcik DH pun cakap bende kalau nak pegi big scale, cara kene ubah bagi senang tu yang orang buat kitchen masak makanan besar besaran, lab bagi try and error new ways of preparing to ease the workload, orang kene cari untuk buat kerja, kalau tak mcm tu je la. jual blakang rumah sampai bila2. itu pun boleh hidup tau, cuma duit nye camtu jela. nak duit lebih kene la usaha lebih.
tapi who am i to say things kan, im just the girl whos lazy and always complaining and stubborn ;p tula. skarang tak suka plak aku degil, dulu time aku kata takyah la kawen dgn aku sbb aku ni degil, mak aku cakap dia pun tak larat nak layan perangai aku ni plak dia. aku ingat mak aku cakap,
'ntah2 baru kawen dah mati sakit jantung dengan perangai u ni' and dont tell me i din mention this to you ok DH, because i did many2 times, and you were like, takpe i nak duduk dgn u je.
dah, skarang duduk la dgn i betul2. pressure ni sume kejap je, later when were all good then we can get our own place or whatever. people might say its impossible or cuba nak tunjuk kat you keadaan malaysia skarang ni that people who dont earn enough can never buy a house, takpela, biar je dorang. kita usaha la smpi boleh. its just natural for that to happen, because people are what they are, and since its family it happens cz they care and of course they want the best for you, DH.
but sometimes caring too much can be disastrous. i made the same mistakes my mom did, which is to tell on DH. sorry DH, but it happens when you dont have a mom to talk to. otherwise i guarantee you only my mom would know, and she would know better of not to menyindir and stuff. or maybe she wouldnt, hahahaha.
ahh tapi takpe la, just to please you, esok aku g ah tanya pasal blaja tu. walaupun hati aku berat snarnye nak blaja ni sbb aku dah plan lain tapi tetibe im being pushed away, booo ;'(
blaja pun blaja la. jgn marah plak kalau aku aktif kat uni nanti.
oh oh pastu aku nak kututt mengutut sikit la kan, hahahaha, theres this one blogger, who really fascinates me, dia tulis in almost all of her posts bragging about her bf and how they dine out at expensive places every time, and tetibe she comes up with a post that people who brag about what they have, actually has nothing to brag about? apekah? mungkin dia terlupa kot about all the past few hundred posts she made ;p
Wednesday, July 11, 2012
in the mood for what?
hey people. sup?
yea yea bet youre all good, better than i am obviously, i feel so miserable when i get nauseous after eating. its like , dammit i shouldnt have eaten, but then it wont be good if i din so yea.
so ive been making my self busy in the kitchen for the past couple of days, recalling my cooking skillz and trying to please DH (well yea i dont usually please him this way ;p). dunno if i managed to accomplish the latter, but he din say anything about my food so i guess it was ok. or maybe he just couldnt bother because he was soo hungry. ya i purposely picked times of when he's starving or only just got up from sleep so that he wont actually notice what the hell is it that i fed him with haha. but whats important was that i felt happy doing it, for him so yea, it was something. and another reason i have been cooking was because i miss my mom, like alot. i literally cried when i went groceries shopping because the stuff shed buy and say if it were too expensive or what she'd say when she made me the dishes i like but i dont eat them because im trying to diet but shed make me break my diet anyways by feeding me herself. awhh ;( so i make stuff that she usually makes me even though they arent as good, but it really helps ease the heart a bit.
guess what, its our anniversary today, yay! haha i mentioned this to him earlier this morning but he was like 'dah, bukang boleh celebrate pung' and i went like 'pehal, boleh pe, happy2 kat rumah je sudah ah'. well i really had something in mind for today, but cz we werent open for business for like a couple of days as in we were being super lazy and only wanted to play wow so were like broke so what i thought of will just have to wait for another day.
well my dearest DH, as in today, we have been married for 2 years, hoorahh. been together for like what, 6 years or so? although that doesnt make us understand each other perfectly, were getting there. we both went thru like a whole lot of shit together and i am glad we are still intact weyhh, walopun kekadang aku rasa macam nak lari rumah pegi duduk pusat perlindungan je kan, but i din, cz aku slalu je mintak kat tuhan bagi aku pikir betul2. dan disebabkan aku tak lari, maka aku rasa tuhan suruh aku lepak je kat sini dulu buat bodo. nanti ok la kan. why sarah, why dgn laki ko mintak petunjuk dgn tuhan dgn mak bapak ko tak mintak pun? sebab ko bongok sebok je nak tanya soklan camtu, mana aku tau, ni pun kira aku baru nak beralih pada tuhan la jugak.
apebende la melalut sampai kesini plak hahaha, anyways, happy 2nd anniversary sayang, i hope wed see more anniversaries to come, insyaAllah. and moga dimurahkan rezeki kita tahun ni walaupun u serabut about it im still looking forward to it even if it isnt sure to be yet! amin! oh and moga2 anda berhenti melakukan perangai buruk anda, iaitu ketagih tut. haaa. ini adalah salah satu reason why i feel like running away from you sometimes, thought you ought to know. sakit hati nak mampos tau tak bila aku tgk sendiri. ptuih! oh and amin to the part where i doakan u tinggalkan perangai shaitan ni, haha. lupa plak nak amin, marah sgt la katakan.
footnote: hari kita kawen tu time ni kat siam lagi kan, makan tomyam dgn pok we, baru habis register nikah kat songkhla. ptg baru balik pastu kita yumyumyum mcm tahik ahahha. tapi time tu sweet2 lagi sbb baru kan, skarang ni gaya metal plak. ;p me love you however you are, its something i cannot deny in my heart. how jahat, unsensitive, bitchy you are pun, my love for you just wont go away. well at least for now ; p
yea yea bet youre all good, better than i am obviously, i feel so miserable when i get nauseous after eating. its like , dammit i shouldnt have eaten, but then it wont be good if i din so yea.
so ive been making my self busy in the kitchen for the past couple of days, recalling my cooking skillz and trying to please DH (well yea i dont usually please him this way ;p). dunno if i managed to accomplish the latter, but he din say anything about my food so i guess it was ok. or maybe he just couldnt bother because he was soo hungry. ya i purposely picked times of when he's starving or only just got up from sleep so that he wont actually notice what the hell is it that i fed him with haha. but whats important was that i felt happy doing it, for him so yea, it was something. and another reason i have been cooking was because i miss my mom, like alot. i literally cried when i went groceries shopping because the stuff shed buy and say if it were too expensive or what she'd say when she made me the dishes i like but i dont eat them because im trying to diet but shed make me break my diet anyways by feeding me herself. awhh ;( so i make stuff that she usually makes me even though they arent as good, but it really helps ease the heart a bit.
guess what, its our anniversary today, yay! haha i mentioned this to him earlier this morning but he was like 'dah, bukang boleh celebrate pung' and i went like 'pehal, boleh pe, happy2 kat rumah je sudah ah'. well i really had something in mind for today, but cz we werent open for business for like a couple of days as in we were being super lazy and only wanted to play wow so were like broke so what i thought of will just have to wait for another day.
well my dearest DH, as in today, we have been married for 2 years, hoorahh. been together for like what, 6 years or so? although that doesnt make us understand each other perfectly, were getting there. we both went thru like a whole lot of shit together and i am glad we are still intact weyhh, walopun kekadang aku rasa macam nak lari rumah pegi duduk pusat perlindungan je kan, but i din, cz aku slalu je mintak kat tuhan bagi aku pikir betul2. dan disebabkan aku tak lari, maka aku rasa tuhan suruh aku lepak je kat sini dulu buat bodo. nanti ok la kan. why sarah, why dgn laki ko mintak petunjuk dgn tuhan dgn mak bapak ko tak mintak pun? sebab ko bongok sebok je nak tanya soklan camtu, mana aku tau, ni pun kira aku baru nak beralih pada tuhan la jugak.
apebende la melalut sampai kesini plak hahaha, anyways, happy 2nd anniversary sayang, i hope wed see more anniversaries to come, insyaAllah. and moga dimurahkan rezeki kita tahun ni walaupun u serabut about it im still looking forward to it even if it isnt sure to be yet! amin! oh and moga2 anda berhenti melakukan perangai buruk anda, iaitu ketagih tut. haaa. ini adalah salah satu reason why i feel like running away from you sometimes, thought you ought to know. sakit hati nak mampos tau tak bila aku tgk sendiri. ptuih! oh and amin to the part where i doakan u tinggalkan perangai shaitan ni, haha. lupa plak nak amin, marah sgt la katakan.
footnote: hari kita kawen tu time ni kat siam lagi kan, makan tomyam dgn pok we, baru habis register nikah kat songkhla. ptg baru balik pastu kita yumyumyum mcm tahik ahahha. tapi time tu sweet2 lagi sbb baru kan, skarang ni gaya metal plak. ;p me love you however you are, its something i cannot deny in my heart. how jahat, unsensitive, bitchy you are pun, my love for you just wont go away. well at least for now ; p
Thursday, July 5, 2012
Messican
Hey people! I feel like its been forever since i last updated. Couldnt even bother to check when was my last post. Well ive been tired and sick for the past couple of weeks, cz i wasnt on medication. But as soon as i went for a medical checkup, the doctor marked me as a TB suspect. I wasnt worried at all though, cz i know the coughing, flu, fever whatever sickness i had was because i did not take any meds but yea i just kept that to myself cz i was curious of what TB suspects had to go through...
Oh and apparently i have anemia, low red blood cells, i think? So im taking iron supplements to make up to it and also to turn my shit black. Yea my shit gets so black i thought i was poopin soil. and before looking it up on the net i thought i din clean my food properly while preparing it.. but then again how could i have mislooked a handful of dirt? crazy girl.
About getting my medical checkup, i went to a government clinic for it and guess how long the whole process took? 5 friggin hours man. I was so miserable by then(from being sick and having to put up with shitty treatment cz i put 'SPM' on the taraf pengajian part of the form.. Shouldve put PhD if i knew what was coming)that i din even wait for my final blood test results.
As some of you might know by now, i have a nasi dagang business. I never had any problems with preparing everything until recently, when the slightest smell of the gravy makes me lose my appetite. So i dont feel excited about cooking for customers or making it taste good or whatever because i just cant. I find myself hating the gravy so much that i dont know what its supposed to taste like anymore. Whenever i imagine the smell of the gravy it brings this imaginative disgusting taste up my throat and well, it makes me feel like im about to puke. See, if i puke it all out it would be like a relief, but im left only feelign nauseous which makes me feel like not doing anything. Apparently some people dont understand that and they think im just being lazy ;( i dunno what happened to promising to lend a hand when i need it.
Put the emo story aside, im currently hooked on to shane dawson tv on youtube. This guy is hilarious, my kind of stuff. He had this one character where he is 'fruitlupe' a mexican girl i think, and he makes her talk in a mexican accent, where words like white become hwite, mexican-messican haha. DH thinks im watching a gay channel, but this guy is anything but gay. You should try watching him. If you get the jokes then i bet youd be hooked too.
I havent been exercising for the past month, so horrible! Ive gained like 0.5kgs, which is a good thing but i think im about to gain like more than that if i dont start a routine soon. Obviously i cant do high impact sports(squash:'(...) because of my history, but swimming, cycling i think those are safe to do, but i guess i should just wait a little longer for everything to settle down. First couple of months are crucial, gotta learn from past mistakes,haha. Too much emotional stress to cope with if i dont.
Tired of guessing whats up with me? I wouldnt bother telling so soon when nothing is assured yet. But im guessing some mightve gotten the hints, grats to those who have!
Oh and apparently i have anemia, low red blood cells, i think? So im taking iron supplements to make up to it and also to turn my shit black. Yea my shit gets so black i thought i was poopin soil. and before looking it up on the net i thought i din clean my food properly while preparing it.. but then again how could i have mislooked a handful of dirt? crazy girl.
About getting my medical checkup, i went to a government clinic for it and guess how long the whole process took? 5 friggin hours man. I was so miserable by then(from being sick and having to put up with shitty treatment cz i put 'SPM' on the taraf pengajian part of the form.. Shouldve put PhD if i knew what was coming)that i din even wait for my final blood test results.
As some of you might know by now, i have a nasi dagang business. I never had any problems with preparing everything until recently, when the slightest smell of the gravy makes me lose my appetite. So i dont feel excited about cooking for customers or making it taste good or whatever because i just cant. I find myself hating the gravy so much that i dont know what its supposed to taste like anymore. Whenever i imagine the smell of the gravy it brings this imaginative disgusting taste up my throat and well, it makes me feel like im about to puke. See, if i puke it all out it would be like a relief, but im left only feelign nauseous which makes me feel like not doing anything. Apparently some people dont understand that and they think im just being lazy ;( i dunno what happened to promising to lend a hand when i need it.
Put the emo story aside, im currently hooked on to shane dawson tv on youtube. This guy is hilarious, my kind of stuff. He had this one character where he is 'fruitlupe' a mexican girl i think, and he makes her talk in a mexican accent, where words like white become hwite, mexican-messican haha. DH thinks im watching a gay channel, but this guy is anything but gay. You should try watching him. If you get the jokes then i bet youd be hooked too.
I havent been exercising for the past month, so horrible! Ive gained like 0.5kgs, which is a good thing but i think im about to gain like more than that if i dont start a routine soon. Obviously i cant do high impact sports(squash:'(...) because of my history, but swimming, cycling i think those are safe to do, but i guess i should just wait a little longer for everything to settle down. First couple of months are crucial, gotta learn from past mistakes,haha. Too much emotional stress to cope with if i dont.
Tired of guessing whats up with me? I wouldnt bother telling so soon when nothing is assured yet. But im guessing some mightve gotten the hints, grats to those who have!
Sunday, July 1, 2012
feeling a little...
why do you have to repeat this?
you couldve atleast tried
but you prefer to satisfy your needs
sampai hati ko biar aku rasa tak sedap hati maca ni
i knew it!
dah lama dah aku rasa tak sedap cuma malas nak check
but now i know
and im gonna patiently wait for when you make the wrong move
dont think the world is too modern for me
we have a connection thats why i feel stuf even before
goddammit
well, haha you think im serious about this? you judge, i just dont know what to blog about right now. too much explicit stuf goin on.
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