Monday, January 12, 2015


i am fat. kaki aku dah sebesar batang pisang balik. i need to work out.. bila exams nak habis niiiii!

Thursday, January 1, 2015

BlackBerry Passport

the thought of getting a Q10 just for temporary use before i get the Note 4,stayed a thought.. because i browsed a little on blackberry, and apparently they only just recently released a new flagship phone...

At first i thought Passport was just a term for its security measure or something like that, but i knew i was wrong when i accidently saw a photo of a square phone while i was browsing for 2nd hand Q10's on

I clicked on the photo...and  i fell inlove with it straight away.

i then proceeded to googling the specs of the phone, and i fell even deeper...hahaha.. drama gila aku ni.

all reviews that i read were positive about the hardware of the phone, saying that its a huge upgrade from all other blackberries ever produced before, and that blackberry might rise from the ashes once again..yada yada yada. for me, i really dont give a damn about it all, as long as i could share files with my friends and do a little bit of work with it. because prior to using an android, i was a blackberry user too...and i loved my berry so much then, as it served my purpose well. the reason i switched to android was because it was new at that time, and touch screen phones were starting to become popular.and also because my bb was at the edge of breaking down lol.

anyways.. after seeing what i thought was enough of the phone on the internet, i made a call to a seller on, asked my father in law to belanja me a phone (mmg aku call dulu org tu suruh datang tanpa aku konfem ke tak dapat duit... hahaha.. i was fucking restless the whole day, scared that my FIL wont agree on me buying such an expensive phone, dahla dah call orang tu suruh datang malam tu jugak) and malam tu jugak aku beli.

upon opening the box, i totally did not expect the phone to be super huge....mak terkejut tau! phone petak , besar muka plak tuh.. and my face isnt your typical girl face, my face is the pinggan sized one. so besar! took the phone out from the box, held it in my hands and i thought 'oh my god.. what the fuck did i just buy', 'how am i gona talk on this' and 'but this looks pretty solid and handsome'. haha.. yang ketiga tu tak belahhhh.. ayat sedapkan hati sendiri. though it is a veryyyy veryyyyyy beautifully crafted device, i swear to it. the bezel is all metal, and it just feels good in my hands.. and mind you, that it is as solid as it looks. only just yesterday i was jumping like a monkey and the phone dropped out of my pocket (yeah it fits in my pocket.. and i was wearing skinny jeans) onto the floor, to what sounded like dents or cracks would appear somewhere on the heart skipped a beat..but i acted cool,picked up the phone, put it back on the table without taking a look at it (konon cool, padahal takut nak tgk kalau ada bengkok ke retak). selepas 5 menet baru slowly reach out to the phone, and pretended to look at messages, when i was furiously scanning for imperfection.

Nothing...not a single scratch on it. Lega gila!

the screen glass is made out of Corningware Gorilla Glass 3, so its pretty difficult to get scratched. good for me, because blackberry is heavily overshadowed by other companies, so this new realease isnt much of a hype yet in Malaysia. kalau nak cakap pasal accessories...mmg takde laaa for now. semua kene beli online. kalau ada casing or protector pun,, semua stock yang buruk2 je.. i got a silicon casing recently, and i hate it so much, but i pakai je cz kawan aku bising, kata just for temporary protection.

noww... getting into the operating system. so, my last blackberry was the bold 4, and that was of the old OS, tak ingat yang mana.. but it is very different from the current OS, Blackberry 10. so i was afraid i might have to subscribe to BIS upon wanting to make full use of the device, but i din have to, which is good, because im on a 2 year contract with maxis that still has a year plus remaining. having to subscribe would mean that id be breaching the contract, and i would have to pay a 1k fine.

seb baik tak payah. rabak duit aku kalau tak.

Apparently Blackberry 10 is relieved from the necessity of BIS to operate, and using it is a simple, straight-forward thing too (well actually i find that all phones are the same). and because i havent been using blackberry devices for a while, i wouldnt know what to compare it to (in terms of usability) except other platforms, so ill leave it at that.

App wise, i think it is pretty poor. maybe cz i came recently from android/iOS devices, i feel like it could use a bit more apps. with my note 3 i could buy gadgets to pair with my phone, but with the passport, i cannot do anything like that..because there isnt any apps to it. blackberry claims that theyre compensating this with the amazon store, but still, i find all the apps available to be very bland. but of course if there is a will then there would certainly be a way, and there is. theres this sideloading thingy that allows you to install android apps on the device. some works, while others dont, and theres that hassle of needing to connect it to a computer to get it started on the first place. since i dont actually use apps with my android before, i still like to see them on my phone, you know, just incase i decide to use any in the future lol. i would appreciate it if theres like at least a decent blogging app.. whatever lah. it makes me use my phone less. which is also good la kan? hahaha..

the keypad is wonderful to use... i think its really clever for bb to incorporate a trackpad into the keypad, it gives that minimalized look, and also adds a cool factor to it, being able to just flick on the keys for screen scrolling and other small things...

nevertheless i will still buy an android as a second phone so i could connect to devices that uses apps for that purpose!

eyeing for a OnePlus One!

Thursday, November 27, 2014

Phone guaaaaaa......

akhirnya, setelah bertahun2 aku ignore the safety of my belongings, phone aku tewas dirembat jua.. yg buat aku sakit hati nye bukan sbb phone tu, but the contents of the phone AND of the wallet case too. ye, aku pemalas nak bawah barang banyak so aku pakai wallet case. laki aku dah cakap dah dulu, takyah pakai, nnt kalau hilang, semua hilang sekali. and i was like

'eh, sukahati la!'

ye... sekarang hatiku suka kegirangan. sukaaaaaa sangaattttt.... ptuih!

pukimak betul laa sape yang curi tu.. haiya... menyusahkan hidup aku je. buat ic kene tunggu 3 minggu, sbb aku buat kat tempat tak ramai orang. akak jpn tu suruh aku buat kat UTC, tapi i cannot stand the crowd, and plus i have no time for long lines this week, cz im playing for the inter-state championships pagi petang. nak buat lesen satu hal pulak.. jpj bangi ni sokmo berduyun manusia. nak kata ada party kat situ, takde pulak aku nampak.. mungkin menjadi trend untuk lepak di jpj zaman ni.

dah start dahhhhhhh rasa yang bertingkat2 bad luck menimpa diriku ini. nak kata beli pakai duit haram, aku beli pakai duit ptptn. ke ptptn tu duit haram??

aku harap, that it leads to something fruitful lah kan..

now i need to get a phone thats cheap and can multitask... cant afford anything hot from the oven right now.. might just get a blackberry q10.. ive always wanted to use that phone. but because i felt like the Note 3 is much more appealing to me (i love to doodle) and that the berry's screen isnt that big, i ditched the latter. now that the price of the phone has gone waaaaayyyyyyyyyy down, perhaps it is the right time to be trying it out, while i wait for a Note 4...lololol. i seriously cant get over the pen feature. and the huge screen, and the speed that my note offered....

i can only imagine Note 4 being different, if not much, at least abit, for the better

Saturday, November 15, 2014

melalak pukul 3 pagi

akibat kebosanan dan sakit pinggang sebab duduk lama membalut batu karang, tepat kol 2 gua ajak le bitches to go for karaoke. sorang suara sedap, sorang suara tak sedap, tapi habutkan aje. sebab nak enjoy je pun..

semua orang ingat kalau karoke nak kene suara sedap. bagi aku, suara sedap tu bonus je. yang penting feel tu masa nyanyi. i have a friend dulu, yang suka karoke. karoke bertahun2, tapi suara masih seperti kuntilanak... tapi takpe, aku suka jugak karoke dgn dia, sbb dia layan gila lagu masa nyanyi. itu yang best pasal karoke snarnye.

paling best, kalau bawak mic stand sendiri masuk bilik karoke. fuhhh... meleleh air liur pikir.

sekarang gua dah balik, gua nak sambung buat kirja sebelum balik rumah to mandi. menyesal plak tak bawak barang mandi...jauh do nak balik rumah, patu nak dtg balik.

nasib baik internet ukm dah ok. kalau tak mungkin akan rasa nak marah sedikit dan mungkin kerja takkan terusik langsung.

tetiba gua teringat lagu keroncong untuk ana.

m.nasir is awsome!

Monday, November 10, 2014

When i was 5
I wanted to be a ninja

At 7
I wanted to be a scientist

A doctor

Turning 13
Made me feel like i wanted to be a musician

Then when i graduated highschool
Parents wanted me to be a surgeon

I got into engineering instead...and did really bad

Having not completed my studies, i switched to Marine Biology

So hyped about becoming a scientist, just like the ones ive seen in National Geographic documentaries long ago. Thought that its exactly what i am going to be.

But now,
Considering the consequences..
Ill just be whatever i can be
Just as long as it gets me out of here.

Sad, that once you get older,
Dreams dont matter as much, as escaping does?

Final year project

I'm in my third year now, well, technically. Cz I still have 3 semesters to complete before graduating.. I could say that this sem feels the worst I ever felt. I have so many classes, and I don't seem to be managing my time very well, skipped so much that I think I couldn't actually catch up with what has been taught in class. It's a sad thing to happen and it's pressuring me a bit- I need to score higher than last semester. Would be a shame if I din, my father in law wouldn't be too pleased... He spent a hell lot of money on me!

I enjoy doing my FYP though. i get to do what i want and my supervisor happens to be a cool person, one that i can actually converse with. i dont have to pretend to be someone im not because he is one of the lecturers whom i perceive to be 'open minded'. honestly before, i never thought that we would ever click, from the stories that i heard of him but after spending some time to get to know him i think that people exaggerate things a little to much. not to say that since i enjoy being in his company i take his word for everything, and i have seen quite a lot of people to learn how to judge all bullshit and what not even when i might not be correct about everything, but i get the idea that he is someone that i could get knowledge from. Fuck what others have to say about me working under his supervision, as what matters is that i am learning things. thats what going to school is about, no?

Everyone makes mistakes, and repeating them isnt much of a big deal to me because were only human after all...  were not machines that could operate at high efficiency once calibrated, we humans have so many emotions to consider as to be able not to repeat the same faults again. and it just sucks when you get criticized for it even when theres effort being put in to avoid the flaws. but whatever, maybe its just me thinking of it that way.

Sunday, August 3, 2014


recently i had like 3 accidents in two months, how much worse can it be? lucky the bad luck streak ended with the 3rd accident... as my results werent affected. Ladies and gentlements, for the first time in my dragging studying history, i received all A's for the subjects i took (ada jugak A- sebenarnye...but still saying all A's sounds so much satisfying!lol) and those grades contributed to a 3.81 GPA, and thus elevating my CGPA from 3.09 to 3.31. i have to say, i was least expecting such results, as i thought i was kinda 'meh' in 2 or 3 papers... rezeki rezeki.

i hope this would continuously be the case (minus the accidents) for coming semesters... seronok tgk result bagus ni. baru lah DH tak kutuk aku! ha!

im taking the short semester course for an english subject, which i dont think is necessary at all, as all we learn is how to write resumes and c.v's and how to talk, bla3... so boring. boring classes make me feel like its unnecessary to attend classes and sort, though i still wish to get an a for it. such a dreamer, i am.