Hari ni , hari keramat. aku takut gila.. takut sebab ada kemungkinan besar bahawa subjek yang aku telah cuba gugurkan dulu, tak boleh dilakukan, dan akan dikira sebagai 'gagal' dalam keputusan peperiksaan aku. Dan itu akan menyebabkan keputusan keseluruhan aku menjadi seperti babi.

FUCK man.. just fuckfuckfuck.

i wish i could just sleep and wake up not remembering that results are out.

i almost forgot about it, until a friend 'helpfully' reminded me of it even when i specifically told him not to. aiyooo..

anyways.. theres this other thing thats bothering me, my data. im supposed to start analyzing, but then i havent, and i tried using SPSS, but damn i think its difficult because im not even sure what a goddamn variable is.. hahahahahaha. i tried consulting my lecturer on what to do, he gave me good answers.. but still it doesnt make me know how to use the software, so im pretty much still stuck. i could always go to my supervisor, and because he knows how to use another type of software, i could get it done in a jiffy.. but contacting him feels awkward nowadays.. i dont know why. its like, when i text him and he doesnt reply, i get that gut feeling that he doesnt want to talk to me or something.

i tried looking for analyzing services, but theyre all pretty costly. and tuition on the subject costs more than if i were to ask them to just run the damn thing for me.

the thing is, i would gladly pay, but i want to see how its done. and these analyzers, they do things online, not on one to one basis, so i am afraid if i dont get the results that i want.
call it paranoid or whatever.. i have a deadline set, so i aim to finish it on time.. and time is running out, which makes the butterflies in my stomach flutter at 300km/h.

fuck all of this.. im going to play battlefield.