i am petrified

of the thought that exams being just around the corner, and fucking afraid id miss the chance to do my final year project on something i have always wanted to work on. yes undergrad research is not specialized but whatever, i still want to work on corals. 

this semester has been pretty good, ive been submitting everything wayy before everyone else, except for the fact that we have statistics... i dont know if im going to pass the subject or not, and i damn well hope i do with at least a B! but mann, numbers are soo confusing right now, and i made the mistake of not studying it from the beginning,  bet i am going to do shit in the exams later

i even considered doing the 'mc for being stressed' trick on the day of the paper itself, as how ive always done for papers that i dont have the confidence to face during my days in usm(eventhough i did so, my results still sucks), but i cannot afford to waste anymore time. its been almost 6 years since i started my degree, and im not even in the medical line.

oh Allah, please make everything fall into place for me. pleaseeee :(