Goin crazy

heyy sup you guys, so last week was pretty hectic, literally, i was physically and mentally tested by only god knows lol. but its all cool now, im happy and thankful to you my dear Allah for the experience.

Fahmi, DH's cousin, the guy who got married last week, just went for his long planned honeymoon today, after dealing with a successful week of wedding reception hassling-s lol. i cant help thinking how sweet the couple are. since theyre like both 'new' to being in love :D damnnnn i miss those days! you gotta be fucking kidding me if you dont you lying married human beings! hahaha

last weekend the reception on the groom's side was held in kuantan, where Fahmi's parents are at, so yea, had to stay there for 3 days. i din set my tank like i did before leaving for cameron highlands, dont want to come home to a disaster again, and because it all happened in a rush so i asked my neighbour, who happens to be a friend of mine from highschool to take care of the fish.

she did a great job, but she doesnt know the contents of the tank from the beginning therefore, when i asked her 'babe is my tank good?' shed say 'yea its fine, the fish are all eating, temperature is ok..yada3' when actually, my dragonet had passed away. lol, passed away... and because the mandarin (a common name for the dragonet) died, the water got polluted, and the signs were obvious (lucky, otherwise i wouldve done nothing about it untill the rest of the livestock starts dying one by one). the corals werent fully blooming, and the water was clouded with huge particles of translucent stuff. it was an eye-sore for me so i decided to do a double water change, first change 10%, next day 20%. the results are pretty awsome. nitrite, ammonia went zilch.

i wanna talk about something i thought of during the journey back from kuantan, something that made me realize that the mistake was always mine and that DH was right afterall, only that im just too stubborn to see it that way, when i heard ustaz azhar's lecture in the car about being a happy woman. he says theres only 2 things to imply in life for that ultimate happiness,

obey Allah, Rasul
obey the Husband

i was brought up in a way that i think, women have the right to decide on things that go on in the family, that women could argue with their husbands when something isnt to their liking, that women should have fair treatment as in, if the husband gets to go out and do stuff, the wife should be able to do so too, and the husband should never say no, and the husband should show appreciation to everything us wives do. yea i grew up with all that and more. but the thing is, the things i experienced while growing up, was a misconception of how things should really be. the truth is that wives, are only advisors, and they are bound to follow their husbands orders no matter what unless its against the laws of islam. and he also said that you should learn how to not let your husband get angry with you. kene jaga molek wehh hati laki... leceh kalau laki tu panas baran hahaha.

the ustaz did say though, because wives are tied to their husbs decisions unless its the against Islamic law, women should choose carefully who their husbs would be, because it would definitely be a burden to them(as in contemplating whether to follow or not when nevertheless its compulsory for her to agree with) to follow orders from a husband who doesnt practice the islamic religion properly.

therefore you married women out there whos always complaining to others that you feel bad because your husb seems to not pay as much attention to you as he did before, save them for yourselves. patience is virtue people, plus dulu gatal ngat nok nikoh kang... muahahaaha. true, some wives are treated well by their husbs, just the way youd like yours to treat you, but remember, not everyone was brought up the same way. maybe his parents arent as romantic as yours, or maybe he rarely sees his parents and when he does, it never has been that good of a situation, or maybe his parents doesnt even care about him and he never got the love he deserves from them so he doesnt know how to treat you the way your parents treated each other, the way you parents treated you.

i used to have high expectations on DH, but i forgot, that we were differently brought up, like totally different.  so skarang, nak taknak, aku kene terima hakikat yang mmg macam ni jela DH. yang kita dapat adalah yang terbaik diberi oleh Allah, kalau bukan yang terbaik, nnt dapat laki baru la aku kan, hahaha tapi sebelum sampai masanya yang mana ada itulah yang terbaik and definitely the one that we should be thankful of.

sorry DH! i love youuuu.

about dieting, last week was awsome, i got away with small amount of fats and carbs, loads of protein since my main diet was chicken and veggies, no salt sugar oil at all. but ruined everything ever since fahmi"s weekend reception till today. and i can feel the muscles shrinking back to the way they were before i started dieting. DAMN!

now i feel kinda lazy to restart the diet.. cz ive been eating like a pig for the last couple of days. maybe its cz my menses are coming soon?

oh and i actually have like photos to post on Fahmi's wedding, but the ones i want are in separate cameras, so im gonna have to round them up first. mind you, its gonna take a while. might come to a year before i even get to have them posted lol.