Raya kedua kat lubuk laki aku

Balik kemaman last wednesday. Tu pun dah jem nak mapuhh. Seb bek buka kat kuantan. Konon nak ajak mmbr aku jupe jap tapi tak jadi sbb aku tertido and by the time aku bgn tu dorg dah nak balik dah and aku baru nak reply msg mmbr aku whicg she sent like an hour ago.

So this is my second time celebrating raya with me hubby's family. Total kampung experience. Masa sambut kat kl biasanya time ni dah takde kete.. Ni kat kemaman, mak ai. Kete mcm hape je. But this years raya wouldnt feel like last years nye, cz i got to see my mum before aku balik kampung. Walaupun diiringi dgn kejadian yg sumpah aku benci gila walaupun aku tau perangai masing2 mmg mmg mcm tu tapi lantakla. Janji part aku dah settle kan. Aku pi jumpa, nak bebaik tapi dah taknak aku nak wat guane. Mujur laa mak aku cam ok sket kalau dia sama naik gak mcm org lain aku tak tau la nak buat apa. Agaknye dah mati kojol kot kat situ.

Anyways ma, selamat hari raya to you. Walaupun haritu tak sempat mintak maaf tapi i harap u tau yg itu la niat i on that day. I hope that you dapat apa yg you doakan all these while, and moga Allah bagi petunjuk to all of us. We all make mistakes ma, were only human. Bukan nabi. Tapi what happened that day is something i will never forget, sbb i bukan budak2 kecik lagi untuk dibuat mcm tu. I ni pompuan. Despite the fact i anak, tapi i tetap pompuan. Nasib baiklaaa aku dah gugur awal2 kalau tak haha habis bedarah hanyarr kat situ.Mungkin apa yg dorg buat haritu bagi satu rasa puas hati ke apa tak tau la kan. Ikut la. But i really appreciate the fact that you din join in the crazy frenzy lol, which makes me feel tak sia2 i teringat kat you all the time because honestly at one point when you were totally against me yelling on the phone and all when i tried to talk nicely i thought maybe you just hate me already. But then i cuma lupa yg tu mmg perangai u, bising gila nak mampus kalau dah lama tak jumpa but once jumpa jadi ok sikit la kan haha walaupun still bising gak lagi.

Papehalpun. Slamat hari raya mama. Maaf zahir dan batin. Also to nana, for thinking that aku buat onar kat dia. I love you both. Mwa.