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ya Allah please please please help me! youre the only one i could turn to during difficult difficult times.

soping gila

Harini kuar lagi shopping barang2 mengarut yang sedikit sebanyak maybe ada kene mengena laa dgn raya tapi tah, aku rasa ni suma suka suki membazir duit je, hahaha, smalam pegi beli aku nye fitflops, sedap doh pakai, ke aku ckp ni sbb aku terpengaruh dgn kata2 orang marketing dia or mmg trompah tu sedap pakai? ahaha. lantak laa, dah beli dah pun, sedap je pakai. adik ipar aku pon beli sepasang gak, kaler pink, aku nyer brown. senang nak match dgn pape pun. patu smalam buka kat cozy corner, aku nak makan yee mee tapi takdak plakkkk chet, so practically apa yang aku makan smalam tu dikategorikan sebagai biasa je, bek buka pose kat rumahh, aku baru mengidam nak makan kari ikan... wuuu. takpe2 maybe tomorrow ahh masak.

smlm gak beli lagi 3 gotchi figures! guna DH nye coupons valued at rm 160, so agak jimat duit la, eh yeke jimat? haha. DH plak beli hexbug, a miniature robot that can be controlled wirelessly, mcm comel jugak la, berjaya made the time pass by cepat2 sementara nak tunggu berbuka kat kedai makan tu.

aku ni dah 2, 3 hari cam nag DH laa pasal phone baru, sbb dia suruh aku pakai prepaid, so i said ok la, if im not gona use Blackberry internet service on postpaid then aku taknak guna BB dah, aku nak tuka phone. and he was like , nak phone apa, aku ckp ahh Galaxy S2. haha, dia cam kerut2 dahi gak laa kata mahal laa beli yang galaxy mini je la( yang murah.. tolong sket ehh. hahaha you were the one who said im materialistic, so let me live up to it laa, sapa suruh tuduh aku something that im not kan kan kan ;P) tapi last2.. aku dapat jugak S2 wei. haha, best2 tau b, haha time kasih byk2 la yeh syg. mwah! im still in the process of getting used to the phone's touch screen and functions sbb aku tak penah pakai touch screen ke android ke paling penting Samsung laa aku tak penah pakai, sbb bagi aku phone samsung seblum2 ni cikai gila. galaxy s2 ni pun aku tak teringin pun snarnye, sbb i always thought id stick with blackberry forever, since phone dia simple dan bagi aku cekap gak la can handle emails and im's kan, tapi bila DH kata tak larat nak bayar bil tu, and bb aku pun dah 2, 3 bulan tak function, aku jadi bosan lak dgn bb, nak tuka android plak.

mula2 tau pasal s2 ni dari mmbr aku ahh, peminat setia samsung, dia dok kata s2 is much2 better than iPhone yada3.. din care much pun that time. tapi today, knowing the fact that it totally is the best phone on the market, maka dgn secara tidak langsungnya aku jadi takbur sket laa ahahahahahaha nahhh just kidding, technology upgrades super fast laa, matter of time je phone ni jadi lapuk, tapi takpe, aku bukan tech junkie pun, so tak kesa laa klu i dont get the latest phones immediately. tapi bila ada peluang dan wangnya skali, why not kan? hehe

i also bought a bag from esprit ( i din know what bag to buy dahh, cz i really need one nak taruk telekung, DS, phone, wallet, tamagotchi, perfume ke apa2 sampah lagi la and tempat lain sume mahal gile) and a long purse. pompuan2 skett, ahahaha.thanks to DH ahh sbb bagi je apebende aku nak, syg sgt. klu tak bagi pun syg jugak, bagi ni kira mcm durian runtuh jela, haha. lepas dah habis cari phone, ingat nak buka kat bubba gump, but then penuh plakk, so buka kat marche, aku tak suka sgt ahh marche, rasa muak doh makan. was looking forward to bubba gump laa, sbb they mostly serve crispy fried seafood, takde la aku rasa muak. tapi nak buat camne, redha jela pape pun. janji berbuka.

tapi la kannn the highlight of the day is not my new phone, but my visit to the maternal clinic! yay finally. haha, DH, dgn adik ipar aku teman ahh, sbb kuar terus tghari tadi. pegi bukak buku merah, patu buat blood, urine test, test results were fine, no HIV or whatsoever they checked for tadi aku pun dah lupa, tapi bebas penyakit la, sakit seh time dia cucuk amek darah tadi, aku plak genggam tgn kuat nak mampus smpi menggeletar haha dia gelak je kat aku. and then a checkup with the nurse. tak buat scan pun, tapi dia buat sonogram eh? yang utk dgr heartbeat baby tu, aku cam tak dgr sgt la at first, tapi bila dia tarik sensor tu kat belah kanan rahim aku, tetibe bunyi dia jadi mcm angin tiup2, and she said that was the sound of its heartbeat. sumpah aku rasa suka gila smpi nak nangis sbb aku tak rasa major changes pun lately so aku ingat dah takda ke apa kan, tapi ada laaa pulakk, hey budak ni buat saspen aku je. i cant wait to know the sex of the baby though, lagi 3 minggu nurse tu ckp bole g scan la, cz im now 15 weeks, 18 weeks bru bole scan.

ahh time flies by soo fast, byk bende berubah, tapi byk jugak yang tak. yang keras tetap keras, sbb nak sgt ikut marah hati. tapi takpe ahh, atleast mungkin kesedaran ttg itulah sebenarnya sifat mutlak dlm diri mereka timbul jadi tanda tanya kan kan, sbb bulan ni setan takda, sape yang nak hasut selain diri sendiri ?

pictures, tgk laa klu rajin ada la, klu takde, then takde laa, camera kat bilik seblah, aku mmg berniat nak bawak camera tu g jalan2 pun tadi tapi malas nak amek, plus battery spare dia tah mana2 tah pegi, kang habis battery serupa takya bawak camera.

tima kaseh Ya Allah for letting this child be in me till now. and aku harap smpi dia beranak laa. huhu. mainan byk sgt ni nnt tak tau nak wasiat kat sapa :D insyaAllah with your will the child will be our responsibility nnt.

nak cari game utk phoneeee wooohoo! nnt boleh main pokemon, boleh main phone, boleh main tamagotchi dlm class uuuu syiokknya!

lingering thoughts

or maybe you think im simply useless

haha, trueee ;)

too bad i only have a handful of these

i wish i could know how old is my baby actually is without having to go for ultrasound... government clinics operates only on weekdays for registration so im just gonna have to wait. waiting IS the hardest part.

Why?

some people just refuse to change. maybe they want to, but they just cant bring their hearts up to it. you know why? i think i see a clear reason of why people just refuse to change for the better.

and yes im super sure, that its watching porn(apart from many other reasons) that stops any means of being a refined person.

kita ni beragama islam. byk bende yang kita buat, tanpa sedar boleh gelapkan hati. bila hati dah gelap, tu yang liat sgt nak berubah tu. solat pun susah, apatah lagi nak beramal agama yang lain?

pasal porn ni, aku dah nampak kat a few people la, mmg aku rasa, bende ni main reason hati tu susah sgt nak terima nasihat agama. dok gila sgt tgk pepek dgn tetek orang lain bakpe? suka sgt tgk aksi2 cucuk mencucuk tu. dah takde kote sendiri ke nak tgk? ke tak cukup dpt pepek? lepas dah tgk tu, dpt tujah kote masuk screen bagi boleh rasa gak apebende yang u all tgk tu?

bende ni mmg habit yang susah nak buang. tapi wehh, apa salahnya untuk agama. ke dah mmg nak plan masuk neraka? nyawa kan anytime tuhan boleh tarik.cuba klu tgh2 tgk porn tu,tetiba mati kojol, agak2 sempat lagi ke nak taubat masuk syurga? dosa tgk porn dah satu hal. dosa2 lain yang buat selain dari tgk porn tu? yang dibuat tanpa sedar tu? dah mati boleh mintak ampun lagi ke? lain la klu u all ni cina, buat dosa, bila mati, bakar dgn duit byk2 so that kononnye si mati tu boleh bayar tambang nak g syurga. cesss.

bulan2 pose ni. udah2 le tuhh, tahan2 laa nafsu tu, moga pintu hati tu tuhan bukakkan supaya niat nak tgk bende2 bongok ni hilang terus.

Hello :D

smalam berbuka kat umah makcik DH, dia masak nasik dagang, which happens to be one of her famous dishes. and i must say, she's really good at making it. DH says that whenever she puts up a nasi dagang stall, it would sell like hot cakes. mmg ye pun sedap. aku skali makan, takde nak makan byk sbb sedap, tapi aku mmg rasa nak makan byk2 kali la, haha letak dadah ke ape kat dlm gulai dia tuh.

japg nak balik kemaman, kerana kputusan mahkamah tentang validnye perkahwinan aku ni akan dikemukakan on sunday. tak payah pegi pun dah tau dah mmg valid. cuma formality je, and nak puaskan hati. kang takde keputusan mahkamah dok pertikai sampai ke kubur wat mende kan? you can have the verdict IN YOUR FACE brotha!

aku tgk passage to malaysia on tlc tadi, and dia g diving sites around malaysia. wuuu rindu nyee nakk g diving, best doh.if only DH has interest in diving as much as i do, it would be so much fun. haha, instead of wasting money on toys, we'd waste on diving trips! travel all the time, all a round the world just to dive. syiok woo. if you tried diving before, then youd know what i mean. bole duduk dlm air tu, rasa mcm duduk kat darat je, with all the breathing support equipment kan, there was once when i almost dozed off underwater wehh, cz of the surrounding yang lain macam ahh, mcm relax lebih underwater. sejuk, patu binatang underwater tu kalerful plus banyak yang tak penah nampak kan, tak pun nampak kat tv tapi time dive tu nampak live so feeling dia lian macam ahh sket. ahhh tak tau ahh aku nak kata, yang aku tau best ah. mmg klu given the chance to dive, aku agak alang2, aku nak dive smpi jadi divemaster je terus.

oh oh and one more thing. dont like the facts in any of my posts? you can complain to 1-800-I DONT GIVE A DAMN BECAUSE ITS MY FUCKING BLOG AND I CAN WRITE WHATEVER I WANT.

bukan aku kutuk politics pun, so takpe laa klu aku nak open lebih ke, nak cocecoce pasal mainan aku ke. tak menjadi kesalahan awam pun. lagipun, aku tak suruh pun ko baca, klu taksuka, takpayah baca. kan senang.

Game baru yang tak brape nak baru

Haritu ada kuar g tgk Hangover 2, DH sebok gila nak tgk, aku rasa biasa je, tapi sbb mcm best gak ahh ada cita nak tgk, lama tak tgk wayang kan, aku pun excited skali sikit2 la. huhu. my verdict- ok laa mcm yang first gak. same same same ol' story. DH as predicted akan ckp best gila movie tu dah dia suka kan, biased opinion ahh,
after getting the tickets for the movie, we went window shopping at video game stores. DH beli game Top Gun, yang movie tuu, pasal pilot tu, padahal game dia dah habis bongok dah, tapi dia beli gakk, kononnye because Top Gun is his all time favourite movie, and a HD version of the movie comes with the game so telah dibazirkan 135rm disitu.aku bising2 ckp tak best beli lain, but he insists on keeping it, and tells me that i can get another game for myself. mula2 nak beli tomb raider 3in 1, tapi last2 beli InFamous. cina tu kata best, so beli je la, tapi harga dia mcm taik mahal, klu beli online i bet bole dapat less than 100rm, sbb game lama doh, skarang dah ada infamous 2 kott, but whatever, we bought it anyways(despite bargaining to no avail, malas nak cara lama2 rembat je).

uhh, i did say DH said i could pick a game for myself, and i went with infamous, so since its my game, im the one who's supposed to be playing it most of the time kan?

aku main sikit je, patu lek jap, DH sambung main smpi skarang, haha. slalunye klu game tu aku punye, aku main byk, DH ni backup jee bila aku tension main tak siap2 satu mission. ni terbalik plak! tapi takpe, tgk DH main pun best gak, game dia best gak laa aku tgk , mcm Assasin's Creed, because main character ada unnatural powers, and missions to complete by time, and sub missions to do if you decide to take a break from the main ones. mcm GTA gak, cuma GTA tu real stuff la, takde la electric powers,world destruction yadayadayada. conclusionnye, game dia agak best sehingga terdetik di hati DH untuk beli sequelnye.

aku tgk iklan fitflop, mcm best je nak pakai gak ahh sandal tu, haha. DH ckp boleh beli, yay!

white looks pretty, but aku malas ahh nnt kotorrr

ni pun cam comel gak, tapi kang tak kene dgn baju bajan aku.

no i dont want my bum to look smaller im happy the way it is thanks

FitFlop is a brand of flip flops that is marketed as being able to help tone your legs and bum as you walk in it. I’d known about it for a while now, but scepticism stopped me from trying it out. That and the hefty price tag. DH pun mula2 cam 'what?! beli asadi je sudah' but since raya is just around the corner, and he bought himself a 800rm G-Shock which i think is unnecessary but he defends himself by saying his old watch-strap is ruined. changing he strap would cost 150 at most, but he just had to get a new watch, and i know why.. because theyre in season and most of his friends are crazy about collecting various models of the new G-Shock. DH ni easily influenced gakk laa kiranya. poyo je nak kata aku. haha padahal dia tuh?
Anyways, FitFlop claims that it will:-


-tone and trim your legs as you walk with the microwobbleboard technology that makes your legs work harder than in normal shoes or slippers
-gives a faster more muscle engaging walk
-relieve back pain
-improve posture

I saw it at Great Eastern Mall last year when it first came in(i think that was when they first came into the Malaysian market, cz ive never seen them anywhere else before, let alone heard of them), kinda caught my attention, so i decided to check it out then but gaped at the price. It starts from RM268 a pair (there are cheaper models now)… yes yes, you can stop looking that horrified now… its way beyond the range of “normal flip flops”. DH says i have an eye for expensive things, hahaha, maybe i do but hey, its normal for eye catching things displayed openly in a mall to be over-priced laa. Even so, i didnt feel like getting a pair at that time, because i was comfortable with my Nikes, but guess who succumbed to the hype of having buns of steel as you walk your way to fitness? ME. hahaha.

I never had suffered from back pain, posture problems ke apa, tapi i have to say la kan, mmg part bagi muscle kat kaki tu aku tertarik laa jugakk, hahaha. plus sandal yang aku ada skarang asadi adik aku yang aku cilok time kuar rumah haritu, and a pair of covered shoes from clarks. bosann ahh asek pakai clarks tu je, cam tak fesyenebel lgsung, haha amboiii byk plakk songeh kau kan sarah. mmg takbolehh nak berangan laa yang kaki aku boleh jadi seslim gmbar yang yang aku taruk tuu, dah aku dapat baka from my dad's side, apa boleh buat kan, peha nenek aku pun mcm batang pisang gak, ayah aku pun lebih kurang je cuma sbb dia laki, so tak obvious mana punn. tapi muscle tu mmg penting ahh bagi aku, because having more of it makes me a better person, better as in better in sports la, for endurance and strength oh you know to help me last longer in marathons and games.. and perhaps in the future, i wont have body aching problems like most of the seniors who exercise less when they were younger kan kan kan. insyaallaahhhhhhh. so bagi aku, biar laa besar pun, janji lean beb, mmg syiokk ahh klu bole endure sukan lelama, nak training pun sedap, bila dah smpi tourney lagi laa sodap.

aku nak beli suar tido gak. priority choices are from la senza laa, tapi klu DH consider balik patu rasa nak beli kat kefor je giant ke aku redha jee. janji tak panas sedap pakai. tapi yang la senza punye mesti sedap gila kan b kan. nnt tido u nak peluk2 pegang2 pun sedap, haa klu yang kefor, giant tuu nnt u pgg2 terus berbulu camne? tak best la kan camtu, hahaha.

eii geramnyee aku tgk baju ngan suar ni, rasa macam nak semua jee. tapi klu DH bagi pun, konfem2 dia bagi aku beli selai dua je, sbb sebijik suar pun dah seratus beb. agak mahattt juga woooo ini brand, tapi itu harga standard barang kat La Senza, takde pun yang mahal gila tak bertempat. (ceh tak mahal lagi, padahal klu beli kat mydin 5 hinggit je hahahaha, mana satu pilihan bijak?) alaaa mahal2 sedap pakai ahh b, utk kesejahteraan bersama. huahuahua.

harini aku masak sup tulang, MIL masak hati lembu. best gak makan sup tulang, lama tak makan, nak plak masak pakai pressure cooker, mmg sit back and relax laa, no hassle at all. MIL cuak aku tak reti masak sup tulang tu, dia dok bgtau aku soh masak ikut cara makcik DH. padahal sama jee macam mak aku buat, and ive seen my mom at it a thousand times, so mmg takpayah risau mesti jadi punye ahh.

east coast dishes mcm byk singgang, kiranya masak mcm simple gila laa, tapi when it comes to some stuff, manis tu, byk sgt guna in every dish, jadi tak best ahh bagi aku. in the end, the stuff cooked by my mum jugak terbaek. tak tau la tu makanan negeri mana kan mak aku masak tapi the balance in flavours mmg perfect ahh, not one sided je. i enjoy cooking for iftars alot because it makes me think real hard of how my mum prepares stuff and its a chance for me to vary my cooking methods. klu tak ingat tu aku bedal je cara sendiri. FIL tak bagi aku masak, sbb dia nak makan yang MIL masak. ololo manjenyeww hahaha, tapi tak bgtau aku straight in the face pun, dia ckp kat MIL je, tapi aku kesian tgk MIL penat balik keje kan, haha, so FIL nak taknak, suka tak suka, aku masak gakkkkk. klu weekend tu mmg aku biar je, tolong pun tolong kemas dapur je sbb aku tak tahan tgk dapur semak time masak... how can you cook bila keadaan sekeliling serabut beb? i know i cant. lagisatu plakk, dapur rumah ni boleh pakai seblah je, yang lagi seblah i think theres something wrong with the gas knob, causing the gas to not be distributed to the hob. nak kene tunggu gas habis baru bole panggil orang check apa pasat. so proses memasak tu takboleh nak lumpsum laa, kene buat satu2, which makes preparing for iftar a slow process, lagi2 time masak lewat. mmg tunggang tebalik dapur!

pasal game cite, barang2 aku nak shopping, masak2 kat dapor, sume bende ada, chacha marbaaa weii duniaa semua ni, hahaha.

The mood is back!

thanks to DH for letting his sombong poyo mood overtake his air, klu dia mesra mcm biasa takde maknenye aku nak turun g gym. haha. time kasih la ye b, buat la poyo hari2 lagi, busy main game ke ape kan takyah ckp dgn i so that i rasa macam nak turun gym. dah laa tgk star wars tak ajak aku, mcm aku taknak tgk je. huh menyampah!

tapi tadi aku turun lambat plakk, sbb basuh pinggan sume, patu nak solat sume lagi, patu nak berak la pulakk so sempat exercise for 40 mins je, boringgggg! tak sempat nak buat tricep lifts, buat satu set je. sepatutnye 2, 3 kan tapi tu ahh gym nak tutup la plakk. so aku cabut, turun tangga smpi G, patu naik balik smpi 8th floor. kira ganti the lunges i was supposed to do la.

mann, 15 minutes on the bike was like hell doh, nevertheless i managed to finish 10km's (which isnt much when youre cycling staticly with a fixed resistance, eh eh tapi fixed2 pun, 4 gak la aku taruk resistance tu. ko bole buat ke? haaaa. lain la ko lagi fit dari aku) soo moralnye disini ialah tahap fitness aku telah jatuh merudum ye tuan puan.

bilee laa nak beranak ni, boleh aku exercise mcm slalu, main squash sume. rindu nak main squash... wuuuu