sometimes i wonder if my heart keeps on skipping beats because of the dark secrets contained in me..

or maybe its because im nervous that results are coming out soon, scared that the subject that i turned in an MC for is still counted in as FAIL, and that it would affect my results all over...

or maybe, that i cannot decide on what to get with my ptptn money, and i secretly wish that i could buy everything at once.

its been two fucking weeks, two fucking unproductive weeks since semester break started. i was supposed to start writing my thesis, but i am lazing around at home, and i mean really being lazy as i couldnt even be bothered to go to the gym, despite having issues with the results of bingeing for the past couple of months (i would like to blame stress so that i dont have to feel too bad about it).

i did go for zumba once, and i didnt like it very much...my SIL does, because the moves incorporate dancing which to her seem easy, while i have to try hard to not appear to stiff.. ive never had the knack for dancing, my body just wont cooperate with me in such matters. good thing that there are also regular exercising routines..otherwise i dont think i would want to join. it would be useless really, how would i be able to burn anything if i cant move properly?

today, DH, SIL, DH's friend and i went to the fatty crab restaurant in taman megah. somewhere in kl...PJ. most reviews i read online were raving about the place, so i thought i should check it out myself.

honestly, i really dont like reading food reviews or food blogs other than Bangsar Babe's, because i feel like the reviews made by her are real, unlike the random people who dont have the right taste for food (though taste is somewhat subjective, there would be times where everyone would agree if the food just tastes like shit), or blog owners that are being paid to say nice things..in other words-they lie.

maybe i should start my own food blog someday (if my husband ever decides to increase his mobility).. so i could counter the comments of the famous eateries claimed to be excellent ha!

so anyways, the fatty crab restaurant, we went there early, arrived like around 6.30 pm (it opens at 6 if im not mistaken) with 10 minutes of slight traffic along the way, and the place was already half full. wow, i thought, there must be something thats really good about this place...ordering was simple though, very very simple, they had 3 types of seafood to choose from, prawns(garlic/chilli), crab(chilli/steamed) and fish(steamed), and theres fried rice or toasted bread, where the latter is said to be good eaten with gravy. debit card is of no permittance there, they accept only transactions of cash, which if you forget to bring any, an RHB atm is available nearby the area.

we ordered fried rice for 6 people (my husband can get really greedy at times lol) 3kgs of chilli crab and 13 fried chicken wings. service was fair.. it was like, it came to a point when i felt like 'where the fuck is my food' and it suddenly arrives lol. meaning to say, waiting duration - still at a tolerable level. so the food arrives, and it looked gorgeous.. just like in the pictures i googled countless times before. the crabs were of good size. the first thing i did was taste the gravy... hmm.. tasted like something i have made before at home- sweet and sour, with just hints of spiciness, and the aroma of shrimp paste. okay.. this is good. the chicken wings were nice, the flavours seemed familiar though.. like the 'flavoured white pepper seasoning' youd find in small shaker containers from supermarkets. the fried rice, normal stuff.

the crabs however..werent my cup of tea. yea its meatier compared to the regularly eaten flower crab, but the taste is not as sweet. it was more... how do i put this.. muddy i guess (duh..the crabs are 'mud crabs' after all). there was a light sweet taste to the meat if you really concentrate on the flavour (learn how to do this by watching rattatouile) but the taste was only of a short note, and then it all fades..... and the plain crabby taste takes place. the gravy really makes up for that muddy taste. thank god.. otherwise i would have felt reluctant to finish it all up. DH only ate like half a crab because he couldnt stand the muddiness, even when i was the one who picked out the flesh for him..imagine that. maybe DH was overreacting, because i ate almost half of the portion served. im not trying to be judgemental here, but i think its of the chinese stereotype that they like the crab because of its value.

because i myself wanted to eat the damn thing so bad after looking at pictures of the fat claws drizzled with gravy. apparently the rule 'you are what you eat' is real, and since the crab lives in dead organic matter, thats exactly how it tastes like.

by the time we were almost done, a line was starting to build up in front of the restaurant, and it was only 7.30pm. the people are really crazy about this place..DH's friend told us that this is what its like everyday, and that usually he would only order for takeaway, where he would call to order in advance, because the joint would be too crowded to eat at.

this is what the end of everything looked like

bill came up to RM219, with RM 129 for the crabs, 20 for the rice, 30ish for the wings and 10ish for drinks. 

reasonable price for me. the food satisfied my curiosity but not my palate. i definitely wont be going back for the crabs on my own accord... though invited i would be happy to chip in a few bucks so as to not be a spoilsport.

i need to concentrate on finishing my thesis before holiday ends!

Exams

i am fat. kaki aku dah sebesar batang pisang balik. i need to work out.. bila exams nak habis niiiii!

BlackBerry Passport

the thought of getting a Q10 just for temporary use before i get the Note 4,stayed a thought.. because i browsed a little on blackberry, and apparently they only just recently released a new flagship phone...

At first i thought Passport was just a term for its security measure or something like that, but i knew i was wrong when i accidently saw a photo of a square phone while i was browsing for 2nd hand Q10's on Mudah.my.

I clicked on the photo...and  i fell inlove with it straight away.

i then proceeded to googling the specs of the phone, and i fell even deeper...hahaha.. drama gila aku ni.

all reviews that i read were positive about the hardware of the phone, saying that its a huge upgrade from all other blackberries ever produced before, and that blackberry might rise from the ashes once again..yada yada yada. for me, i really dont give a damn about it all, as long as i could share files with my friends and do a little bit of work with it. because prior to using an android, i was a blackberry user too...and i loved my berry so much then, as it served its purpose well. the reason i switched to android was because it was new at that time, and touch screen phones were starting to become popular.and also because my bb was at the edge of breaking down lol.

anyways.. after seeing what i thought was enough of the phone on the internet, i made a call to a seller on Mudah.my, asked my father in law to belanja me a phone (mmg aku call dulu org tu suruh datang tanpa aku konfem ke tak dapat duit... hahaha.. i was fucking restless the whole day, scared that my FIL wont agree on me buying such an expensive phone, dahla dah call orang tu suruh datang malam tu jugak) and malam tu jugak aku beli.

upon opening the box, i totally did not expect the phone to be super huge....mak terkejut tau! phone petak , besar muka plak tuh.. and my face isnt your typical girl face, my face is the pinggan sized one. so besar! took the phone out from the box, held it in my hands and i thought 'oh my god.. what the fuck did i just buy', 'how am i gona talk on this' and 'but this looks pretty solid and handsome'. haha.. yang ketiga tu tak belahhhh.. ayat sedapkan hati sendiri. though it is a veryyyy veryyyyyy beautifully crafted device, i swear to it. the bezel is all metal, and it just feels good in my hands.. and mind you, that it is as solid as it looks. only just yesterday i was jumping like a monkey and the phone dropped out of my pocket (yeah it fits in my pocket.. and i was wearing skinny jeans) onto the floor, to what sounded like dents or cracks would appear somewhere on the phone..my heart skipped a beat..but i acted cool,picked up the phone, put it back on the table without taking a look at it (konon cool, padahal takut nak tgk kalau ada bengkok ke retak). selepas 5 menet baru slowly reach out to the phone, and pretended to look at messages, when i was furiously scanning for imperfection.

Nothing...not a single scratch on it. Lega gila!

the screen glass is made out of Corningware Gorilla Glass 3, so its pretty difficult to get scratched. good for me, because blackberry is heavily overshadowed by other companies, so this new realease isnt much of a hype yet in Malaysia. kalau nak cakap pasal accessories...mmg takde laaa for now. semua kene beli online. kalau ada casing or protector pun,, semua stock yang buruk2 je.. i got a silicon casing recently, and i hate it so much, but i pakai je cz kawan aku bising, kata just for temporary protection.

noww... getting into the operating system. so, my last blackberry was the bold 4, and that was of the old OS, tak ingat yang mana.. but it is very different from the current OS, Blackberry 10. so i was afraid i might have to subscribe to BIS upon wanting to make full use of the device, but i din have to, which is good, because im on a 2 year contract with maxis that still has a year plus remaining. having to subscribe would mean that id be breaching the contract, and i would have to pay a 1k fine.

seb baik tak payah. rabak duit aku kalau tak.

Apparently Blackberry 10 is relieved from the necessity of BIS to operate, and using it is a simple, straight-forward thing too (well actually i find that all phones are the same). and because i havent been using blackberry devices for a while, i wouldnt know what to compare it to (in terms of usability) except other platforms, so ill leave it at that.

App wise, i think it is pretty poor. maybe cz i came recently from android/iOS devices, i feel like it could use a bit more apps. with my note 3 i could buy gadgets to pair with my phone, but with the passport, i cannot do anything like that..because there isnt any apps to it. blackberry claims that theyre compensating this with the amazon store, but still, i find all the apps available to be very bland. but of course if there is a will then there would certainly be a way, and there is. theres this sideloading thingy that allows you to install android apps on the device. some works, while others dont, and theres that hassle of needing to connect it to a computer to get it started on the first place. since i dont actually use apps with my android before, i still like to see them on my phone, you know, just incase i decide to use any in the future lol. i would appreciate it if theres like at least a decent blogging app.. whatever lah. it makes me use my phone less. which is also good la kan? hahaha..

the keypad is wonderful to use... i think its really clever for bb to incorporate a trackpad into the keypad, it gives that minimalized look, and also adds a cool factor to it, being able to just flick on the keys for screen scrolling and other small things...

nevertheless i will still buy an android as a second phone so i could connect to devices that uses apps for that purpose!

eyeing for a OnePlus One!