omg i cant help feeling so hungry all the time, before being pregnant i could go with 5, 6 hour gaps without food,but now, it seems like my stomach would growl every 1, 2 hours! this is insane! i really dont want to overfeed myself, because i want to gain a healthy weight but i cant help it cz if i dont eat something when my stomach grumbles then itd hurt like hell and id feel like vomiting. and its not like you have to feed yourself for two during preggers cz you only need an additional 300 calories je for the baby.before sleeping, and waking up are times when the hunger strikes at its worst. its as if i havent eaten all day long. i heard stories of people being pregnant and gaining weight like crazy because of these hunger jolts, but there should be a way to curb this kan? ke all i have to do is eat? teruk dohh lapar ni, aku tgh makan skarang pun rasa lapar gila babi, macam makanan tak masuk dlm perut, masuk dlm kulit terus je. and theyre not even cravings, klu cravings tu aku bole terima la lagi, tapi ni lapar sesaja. aperhal??
haihh some parts of being pregnant is no fun at all. tapi mengenangkan anak yang nak dapat ni, nasib baik jiwa aku redha je. hahhaha, dahhh nak anak sgt kan. mcm2 mana pun nak kene jaga. bukan bole main buang je. skarang ni aku dlm mode excited nak cari nama anak, haha.
kita kene letak nama yang ada maksud elok kan, bukan main bagi nama ikut sedap je. because the child will live up to its name, tapi ada je aku tgk nama 'yg terpelihara' tapi mcm sampah je jadinye, hahahha. mengasuh, mendidik, tu sume boleh buat bro, tapi how they turn out later in life, is totally out of our(parents) ability to predict. kita hanya merancang, tuhan yang tentukan. so klu anak aku buas mcm aku or DH pun, aku terima je, sbb dah ketentuan tuhan. mana aku rasa boleh selamat, aku slamatkan. yang takboleh tu, berserah pada yang maha Esa ajelaaa kan kan kan.
lapar la wehhh, nak subwayy, nak sushi, nak makan makanan yang kurang lemakk takmo jadi fiona (shrek) time mengandung wuuuu.
Friday, July 29, 2011
For those who think theyre like super smart in manipulating things.
Kahwin Lari di Selatan Thailand
Keputusan:
Muzakarah Jawatankuasa Fatwa Majlis Kebangsaan Bagi Hal Ehwal Ugama Islam Malaysia Kali Ke-52 yang bersidang pada 1 Jul 2002 telah membincangkan Kahwin Lari di Selatan Thailand. Muzakarah telah memutuskan bahawa hukum pernikahan di luar negara adalah sah dengan syarat :
1.Pernikahan itu mengikut rukun nikah
2.Pernikahan itu melebihi dua marhalah
3.Tiada keputusan mahkamah yang menghalang perempuan itu berkahwin atas alasan syarak ditempat dia bermastautin.
4.Pernikahan itu dilakukan oleh wali hakim yang diiktiraf oleh wilayah negara berkenaan dan diakad nikahkan di wilayah berkenaan di mana ia ditauliahkan sebagai wali hakim.
sume syarat ni difulfillkan eh. i have all the legal documents, all have been verified by the court. and jgn marah bila aku kata aku copy paste bende ni dari portal e-fatwa, because you know you wanna be angry sbb aku nak tunjuk pandai, haha.
masalah kawin lari ni, orang byk kata tak sah sbb wali hakim, padahal wali dah ada. and that the father of the bride could have the marriage di-faraqkan(bubar) atas sebab2 munasabah.
nama pun aku kawin lebih 2 marhalah, so terang dan nyata sah.
DH isap dadah?
DH ada HIV?
takde pun. so apa sebabnye kawin aku jadi tak sah?
ke sebab ko takboleh tgk orang senang?
sesungguhnya kesilapan yang terbesar dlm kawin lari ni hanyalah membelakangi mak bapak. aku takleh nak buat apa, aku dah mintak maaf before, tak sempat nak mintak maaf habis dahhh sume orang tak bagi aku contact plakk, disebabkan keadaan yang berlaku atas dendam dlm hati. bak kata parents aku, orang yang ckp benar buat bende mesti smooth. mesti kuat, takkan goyah whatever, tapi klu ckp bohong... ofcourse la yang jadi tu the opposite. so? sape yang makan cili terasa laaa pedasnye hahaha.
apa, nak kata aku ni time ni je rasa gagah, awal lagi? takpayah laaa, klu tuhan nak tunjuk, tuhan tunjuk je beb, i wonder why ramai gila babi yang nak tolong time aku nak register kat malaysia ni. sbb aku salah ke? hahaha. eh eh ke sebab aku kawen sah? ooo patut ahhh orang senang nak tolong. kawen sah rupenye.
ahh at least DH nak kawin dgn aku. tak kesa la ko nak kata pengecut ke tak jentelmen ke sbb tak mintak habis patu main curi je, dia kawin jugak, dah aku jugak yang nak, plus ni bukan kali ni je dia mintak nak kawin lari dgn aku. time matriks dulu dia dah ckp nak kawin, aku taknak sbb mcm semak je nak kawen. sedar diri sikit seblum kata orang pengecut bro!
most of the articles that explain panjang lebar pasal kawin lari ni tak sah, adalah the writer's own thoughts, bukan based on what the court has decided upon ke ape. i understand why they came up with kawin lari being invalid, sbbnye dah dorang rasa tahpape buat camtu. kawin laa elok2 mintak elok2 and all bukan susah pun adalah apa yang dorang pikir. pasal sah tu dia bole plakk pusing2 ayat tuh, susah sgt nak mengaku sah. patu come up with stories that ada couple ni kawin tak sah and then pekahwinan tu kene bubar sbb wali ada sbb munasabah where the wali states that mamat yang kawin dgn anak dia tuh, ada HIV, patu isap dadah.
obvious gila beb boleh bubar. tapi kes aku, apa masalah?
mcm ni la, aku dah malas la nak mengharap penerimaan, regardless from anyone, friends ke family. nak terima, terima la, taknak sudah, nor do i have any grudges on anyone, i just think that the mamat from guar buah buahan tu mcm poyo lebih nak condemn aku plakk, padahal tah dia tau ke tak hukum. nasihat aku kepada mamat buah tu ialah, sng2 hg dok kat USM tu, p tanya je la kat pusat islam tu, seblah je kott. klu ustaz tu kata tak sah, maka anda dibenarkan mengutuk2 saya ye. klu sah, and klu ko tak diam jugak wahai mamat buah, maka aku rasa baikla ko cuba jahit mulut sendiri. klu mulut dah diam tapi jari plak takbole benti nak menaip sebok dok kata haram padahal dah tau halal tuh, ko kerat laa jari jemari ko, tgn first, jari2 tu ko kerat guna cutter, tgn second, cutter tu ko tekan pakai mulut utk potong yang 2nd tu sbb jari dah takde nak pegang kan.
aku belum lagi jadi manusia yang redha, tapi dah kebanyakan bende aku redha je, haha. aku tak suka orang2 yang buat hukum sendiri. seblum aku pegi kawin ni pun, aku bukan main pegi je tau, haa aku korek dalam2 dulu camne sume. mmg nasib baik laa orang yang kitorang bayar bawak g kawin tu bawak pegi jurunikah berdaftar so mmg takde masalah aaa, dgn surat consulate lagi. balik malaysia, mahkamah sahkan plak, registration smooth. what else what else? takde masalah pun. so takyah laa ko semak nak buat masalah lebih plak, buat bengang diri ko sendiri je.
mintak maaf ckp la bro, aku rasa ko terlalu sore sbb you trusted me, and you couldnt see through my lies, lakonan aku supaya tak kantoi kawen. ko sgt2 kecewa, sbb you fell hard for me, but then rupanya2 aku dah kawin lari dah pun. ah well, mak aku slalu kata jgn mainkan perasaan orang. aku tak mainkan pun, sbb aku takde bagi ko harapan ke pape kan. dah, aku taleh nak halang apa ko rasa. tapi aku dah kawin da pun, so boleh takkk klu ko tolong duduk jauh2 diam2, sbb takde apa dah pun yang ko boleh buat. because youre only making things worse. dont believe me? ok ok, ko kata nak tolong parents aku dpt aku balik kan, tapi skarang dgn pertolongan ko yang mulia tu, kemana arah semua ni? itu ahh dia, ckp tu berbatas la, kalau dah aku kawin lari, hukum tu, tu antara aku dengan Tuhan, jangan berlagak jadi Tuhan, nak hukum orang, nak kata orang tu jahat, awak tu baik. poodah!
ni ujian tuhan kat aku. aku cuma bole bising kat blog je. klu tak, ikutkan hati, aku nak balik penang harini, kasi pecah muka kau bro. yang menghalang aku from doing so ialah betapa ruginya aku klu aku pukul ko sbb agama tak galakkan keganasan. so far, from my side, takde pun any threats or whatever. family aku je semangat nak berganaz ganasan ni. sume orang klu ikutkan hati nak serang balik, tapi untuk apa? it wont solve anything. macam aku nak pecahkan muka ko, untuk apa? you still will talk if thats what you want kan. so whatever la.
aku malas nak cakap direct sbb i dont want anything to do with you anymore klu boleh, all i can conclude is that youre a sore loser.
kepada mak ayah aku yang masih dlm mood mengamuk, aku untuk kali keberapa ntah nak mintak maaf sgt2 sbb buat bende mcm ni. i told you a few years back dahh when you claim you know me, but you actually dont. being far away from you guys made me a different person, of course i still have some of the stuff which you believe me to have, tapi kebanyakan nye im different from what you claim me to be. non of my friends wonder when i tell them that i kawin lari , because they know things like these are synonymous of me. im sorry for making you tell lies, make you turn all violent on people, for making you drag yourselves around without results. i love you guys, but you were the ones who said that theres no more love for me. of course, id do anything for your forgiveness and acceptance, tapi bukan dgn cara bercerai dgn DH. you name anything, i buat. sume orang kat sini klu boleh nak berdamai. tunggu u guys je. wallahualam la kan u nak ke tak. i doakan yang terbaik je utk my parents.
and kepada mamat buah, you do what you gotta do to achieve the gentleman title ehh. selamat beramal. apela, bikin panas je aku nak main pokemon pun tak senang. chet.
Keputusan:
Muzakarah Jawatankuasa Fatwa Majlis Kebangsaan Bagi Hal Ehwal Ugama Islam Malaysia Kali Ke-52 yang bersidang pada 1 Jul 2002 telah membincangkan Kahwin Lari di Selatan Thailand. Muzakarah telah memutuskan bahawa hukum pernikahan di luar negara adalah sah dengan syarat :
1.Pernikahan itu mengikut rukun nikah
2.Pernikahan itu melebihi dua marhalah
3.Tiada keputusan mahkamah yang menghalang perempuan itu berkahwin atas alasan syarak ditempat dia bermastautin.
4.Pernikahan itu dilakukan oleh wali hakim yang diiktiraf oleh wilayah negara berkenaan dan diakad nikahkan di wilayah berkenaan di mana ia ditauliahkan sebagai wali hakim.
sume syarat ni difulfillkan eh. i have all the legal documents, all have been verified by the court. and jgn marah bila aku kata aku copy paste bende ni dari portal e-fatwa, because you know you wanna be angry sbb aku nak tunjuk pandai, haha.
masalah kawin lari ni, orang byk kata tak sah sbb wali hakim, padahal wali dah ada. and that the father of the bride could have the marriage di-faraqkan(bubar) atas sebab2 munasabah.
nama pun aku kawin lebih 2 marhalah, so terang dan nyata sah.
DH isap dadah?
DH ada HIV?
takde pun. so apa sebabnye kawin aku jadi tak sah?
ke sebab ko takboleh tgk orang senang?
sesungguhnya kesilapan yang terbesar dlm kawin lari ni hanyalah membelakangi mak bapak. aku takleh nak buat apa, aku dah mintak maaf before, tak sempat nak mintak maaf habis dahhh sume orang tak bagi aku contact plakk, disebabkan keadaan yang berlaku atas dendam dlm hati. bak kata parents aku, orang yang ckp benar buat bende mesti smooth. mesti kuat, takkan goyah whatever, tapi klu ckp bohong... ofcourse la yang jadi tu the opposite. so? sape yang makan cili terasa laaa pedasnye hahaha.
apa, nak kata aku ni time ni je rasa gagah, awal lagi? takpayah laaa, klu tuhan nak tunjuk, tuhan tunjuk je beb, i wonder why ramai gila babi yang nak tolong time aku nak register kat malaysia ni. sbb aku salah ke? hahaha. eh eh ke sebab aku kawen sah? ooo patut ahhh orang senang nak tolong. kawen sah rupenye.
ahh at least DH nak kawin dgn aku. tak kesa la ko nak kata pengecut ke tak jentelmen ke sbb tak mintak habis patu main curi je, dia kawin jugak, dah aku jugak yang nak, plus ni bukan kali ni je dia mintak nak kawin lari dgn aku. time matriks dulu dia dah ckp nak kawin, aku taknak sbb mcm semak je nak kawen. sedar diri sikit seblum kata orang pengecut bro!
most of the articles that explain panjang lebar pasal kawin lari ni tak sah, adalah the writer's own thoughts, bukan based on what the court has decided upon ke ape. i understand why they came up with kawin lari being invalid, sbbnye dah dorang rasa tahpape buat camtu. kawin laa elok2 mintak elok2 and all bukan susah pun adalah apa yang dorang pikir. pasal sah tu dia bole plakk pusing2 ayat tuh, susah sgt nak mengaku sah. patu come up with stories that ada couple ni kawin tak sah and then pekahwinan tu kene bubar sbb wali ada sbb munasabah where the wali states that mamat yang kawin dgn anak dia tuh, ada HIV, patu isap dadah.
obvious gila beb boleh bubar. tapi kes aku, apa masalah?
mcm ni la, aku dah malas la nak mengharap penerimaan, regardless from anyone, friends ke family. nak terima, terima la, taknak sudah, nor do i have any grudges on anyone, i just think that the mamat from guar buah buahan tu mcm poyo lebih nak condemn aku plakk, padahal tah dia tau ke tak hukum. nasihat aku kepada mamat buah tu ialah, sng2 hg dok kat USM tu, p tanya je la kat pusat islam tu, seblah je kott. klu ustaz tu kata tak sah, maka anda dibenarkan mengutuk2 saya ye. klu sah, and klu ko tak diam jugak wahai mamat buah, maka aku rasa baikla ko cuba jahit mulut sendiri. klu mulut dah diam tapi jari plak takbole benti nak menaip sebok dok kata haram padahal dah tau halal tuh, ko kerat laa jari jemari ko, tgn first, jari2 tu ko kerat guna cutter, tgn second, cutter tu ko tekan pakai mulut utk potong yang 2nd tu sbb jari dah takde nak pegang kan.
aku belum lagi jadi manusia yang redha, tapi dah kebanyakan bende aku redha je, haha. aku tak suka orang2 yang buat hukum sendiri. seblum aku pegi kawin ni pun, aku bukan main pegi je tau, haa aku korek dalam2 dulu camne sume. mmg nasib baik laa orang yang kitorang bayar bawak g kawin tu bawak pegi jurunikah berdaftar so mmg takde masalah aaa, dgn surat consulate lagi. balik malaysia, mahkamah sahkan plak, registration smooth. what else what else? takde masalah pun. so takyah laa ko semak nak buat masalah lebih plak, buat bengang diri ko sendiri je.
mintak maaf ckp la bro, aku rasa ko terlalu sore sbb you trusted me, and you couldnt see through my lies, lakonan aku supaya tak kantoi kawen. ko sgt2 kecewa, sbb you fell hard for me, but then rupanya2 aku dah kawin lari dah pun. ah well, mak aku slalu kata jgn mainkan perasaan orang. aku tak mainkan pun, sbb aku takde bagi ko harapan ke pape kan. dah, aku taleh nak halang apa ko rasa. tapi aku dah kawin da pun, so boleh takkk klu ko tolong duduk jauh2 diam2, sbb takde apa dah pun yang ko boleh buat. because youre only making things worse. dont believe me? ok ok, ko kata nak tolong parents aku dpt aku balik kan, tapi skarang dgn pertolongan ko yang mulia tu, kemana arah semua ni? itu ahh dia, ckp tu berbatas la, kalau dah aku kawin lari, hukum tu, tu antara aku dengan Tuhan, jangan berlagak jadi Tuhan, nak hukum orang, nak kata orang tu jahat, awak tu baik. poodah!
ni ujian tuhan kat aku. aku cuma bole bising kat blog je. klu tak, ikutkan hati, aku nak balik penang harini, kasi pecah muka kau bro. yang menghalang aku from doing so ialah betapa ruginya aku klu aku pukul ko sbb agama tak galakkan keganasan. so far, from my side, takde pun any threats or whatever. family aku je semangat nak berganaz ganasan ni. sume orang klu ikutkan hati nak serang balik, tapi untuk apa? it wont solve anything. macam aku nak pecahkan muka ko, untuk apa? you still will talk if thats what you want kan. so whatever la.
aku malas nak cakap direct sbb i dont want anything to do with you anymore klu boleh, all i can conclude is that youre a sore loser.
kepada mak ayah aku yang masih dlm mood mengamuk, aku untuk kali keberapa ntah nak mintak maaf sgt2 sbb buat bende mcm ni. i told you a few years back dahh when you claim you know me, but you actually dont. being far away from you guys made me a different person, of course i still have some of the stuff which you believe me to have, tapi kebanyakan nye im different from what you claim me to be. non of my friends wonder when i tell them that i kawin lari , because they know things like these are synonymous of me. im sorry for making you tell lies, make you turn all violent on people, for making you drag yourselves around without results. i love you guys, but you were the ones who said that theres no more love for me. of course, id do anything for your forgiveness and acceptance, tapi bukan dgn cara bercerai dgn DH. you name anything, i buat. sume orang kat sini klu boleh nak berdamai. tunggu u guys je. wallahualam la kan u nak ke tak. i doakan yang terbaik je utk my parents.
and kepada mamat buah, you do what you gotta do to achieve the gentleman title ehh. selamat beramal. apela, bikin panas je aku nak main pokemon pun tak senang. chet.
Wednesday, July 27, 2011
I finished the Johto Region!
it took me 106 long hours to complete the first part of the game, mainly because i wandered alot around the region trying to catch legendary pokemon, looking for items, collecting pokemon.. i have the guidebook dont i? so gotta make full use of it otherwise tak value for money la beb, haha.
guess what my character's name is. KURIK. haha. DH likes using the name kurik since forever, and i think its cute so yea thats why my cat and my pokemon master gets it.
now i can go around Kanto region to collect more pokemons and items! yay! this is where the 2nd volume of the guidebook functions in aiding me through my journey(omg im so happy im going to finally be able to use the second book :D) however, there are loads that still needs to be done in Johto, im trying to make my Jynx have an egg, and she seems reluctant. i bet you its gonna be a really long wait. worth the pokemon collection though. ahh collection pokemon is soo addictive!
DH is out watching his friends RC-ing. he says he's considering of joining them play if he sees fit. he used to play the RC about a year or two ago, with his car club buddies, and suddenly he stops. not sure why, but i think it was because he got so caught up with me. HA! hahahaha. well at least thats how i want it to be.
ive never tried the RC before, the cheap ones yala, slalu je, but the expensive ones where you can have it modified like a real car takpenah lagi pun. rasa macam nak main jugak tapi DH mesti kata aku poyo je sebok, hahahaha. padahal dia jeles aku suka bende2 mcm dia.kekeke.
ehh im trying to get DH buy me a tamagotchi. he seems ok with it, haha kesian betul all i do is waste his money. dia jugak yang kata hati dia tenang bila dia rabak sbb aku hahahaha. i love you DH
Tuesday, July 26, 2011
after all these days..
Unifi kat uma ni cam bengong je a few days ago. dah nak 5 hari baru laaa technician unifi tu dtg buat keje dia. smalam lagi aku nak update blog, tapi malas nak pgg pc, sbb DH men game baru Empires and Allies kat fb, lama sangat smpi aku jadi malas nak update. walopun begitu, tgh malam before aku tido aku men pokemon jap, and bile dah penat aku bukak tenet kat DS, nak update blog, mcm haremmmm. bole update title je, hahaha.
last week bawak eek dgn kurik g vet, kurik ada ear mites, eek berkutu, ceh. bengang gila aku dgr time tu, byk plakk penyakitnye. nevertheless dah bela kan, kena ahhh bagi dorang bebas penyakit. after the vet session we sent them for grooming. is 50bux per cat considered expensive? ke ada grooming yang lagi mahal? aku tak tau ahh, slalunye aku groom sendiri je, tapi considering my circumstances aku malas nak men bulu sgt. stakat jaga2 bagi ubat camtu ok ahh. taik DH buang. ahhaha, smalam kurik berak berselepat, maybe taik dia dah 2, 3 hari gak la, sbb keras gila kat lantai tu susah nak tanggal. DH mengamuk mcm apa je time cuci taik tu, smpi aku pun kene marah skali, bengong betul. DH asked me to go and get the toilet floor cleaner, so i went to the toilet, and brought him a bottle of clorox, padahal yang dia nak tu bende cuci jamban yang duck duck tu, tapi cakap kat aku nak cuci lantai toilet. patu dia bole pulak buat bengang dgn aku sbb aku bawak bende salah, tahpape tah. patu dah habis emo buang taik dia, dtg gak kat aku mintak nak makan, tak malu betul. dah la marah aku takpasal2, haha. takpe, janji u buang taik :D
aku rasa macam nak beli hand vacuum ahh, susah dohh nak vacuum carpet kat dlm bilik ni, penat ahh asek nak kene kuarkan kusi, steering sume everytime nak vacuum, dah la spatutnye nak kene vacuum every 2, 3 days. berat tau. sgt penat. tmpat yang takde kapet tu bole ahh nak sapu je, much easier to have the floor swept than vacuumed, its time efficient and cleaner too. plus i get to sweat abit. haha. klu ko nak tau la, tiap kali aku pgg penyapu tu, aku akan pgg mcm pegang reket squash, kononnye nak kuatkan grip aku lagi laa bila pgg reket tu nnt haha.tapi aku rasa sedikit sebanyak membantu la jugak, sbb bila menyapu tu lengan aku rasa ahh lenguh dia macam main squash. haha, fanatik gila, menyapu pun nak macam squash. tp tu ahhh back to the vacuum thingy, mahal gila babi doh, rm350 at its cheapest, paling mahal rm1k. DH mula2 ckp klu bende tu dlm 200bux, boleh beli, tapi aku tak dapat duit blanje ah. hei, ape kene mengene vacuum dgn duit blanje? aku buat keje rumah kot. bayar ahhh gaji. plus bende tu necessity, sape soh sebok nak pakai carpet dlm bilik, haaa.
Dulu aku ada ingat DH ckp, nnt klu dah kawin and ada keje, klu aku nak beli apa2, aku kene pakai duit gaji aku, takbole mintak dia. haha, aku taknak keje ahh camni. aku nak mintak kat DH je sume bende. asal plak? sbb dia laki aku laa, and he's responsible for my needs. my friend penah bgtau that, klu DH nak beli barang, dia kene beli kat aku skali. dia takbole la nak beli barang untuk dia tapi tak mampu nak beli untuk aku, unless bende tu mmg crucial la dia nak kene ada. and he should be getting me something of a similar value to what he has, or neither of us gets anything. klu tak it wont be fair. who says life is unfair? most of the time unfair sbb kita yang buat jadi unfair and then claims of being the injured party. hahaha, weeeeeiiiiirrrrddddd.
i feel like going to the gym today. wanna run run run squat squat squat lift lift lift then go swimming. tah buat tah tidak. haha btw kawan2, aku dah gemok ye. menyampah betul ai. nasib baik gemok sikit for a cause. tapi tu ahh, aku ingat bole maintain kot if i dont miss my workouts. gota start eating healthy now.
last week bawak eek dgn kurik g vet, kurik ada ear mites, eek berkutu, ceh. bengang gila aku dgr time tu, byk plakk penyakitnye. nevertheless dah bela kan, kena ahhh bagi dorang bebas penyakit. after the vet session we sent them for grooming. is 50bux per cat considered expensive? ke ada grooming yang lagi mahal? aku tak tau ahh, slalunye aku groom sendiri je, tapi considering my circumstances aku malas nak men bulu sgt. stakat jaga2 bagi ubat camtu ok ahh. taik DH buang. ahhaha, smalam kurik berak berselepat, maybe taik dia dah 2, 3 hari gak la, sbb keras gila kat lantai tu susah nak tanggal. DH mengamuk mcm apa je time cuci taik tu, smpi aku pun kene marah skali, bengong betul. DH asked me to go and get the toilet floor cleaner, so i went to the toilet, and brought him a bottle of clorox, padahal yang dia nak tu bende cuci jamban yang duck duck tu, tapi cakap kat aku nak cuci lantai toilet. patu dia bole pulak buat bengang dgn aku sbb aku bawak bende salah, tahpape tah. patu dah habis emo buang taik dia, dtg gak kat aku mintak nak makan, tak malu betul. dah la marah aku takpasal2, haha. takpe, janji u buang taik :D
aku rasa macam nak beli hand vacuum ahh, susah dohh nak vacuum carpet kat dlm bilik ni, penat ahh asek nak kene kuarkan kusi, steering sume everytime nak vacuum, dah la spatutnye nak kene vacuum every 2, 3 days. berat tau. sgt penat. tmpat yang takde kapet tu bole ahh nak sapu je, much easier to have the floor swept than vacuumed, its time efficient and cleaner too. plus i get to sweat abit. haha. klu ko nak tau la, tiap kali aku pgg penyapu tu, aku akan pgg mcm pegang reket squash, kononnye nak kuatkan grip aku lagi laa bila pgg reket tu nnt haha.tapi aku rasa sedikit sebanyak membantu la jugak, sbb bila menyapu tu lengan aku rasa ahh lenguh dia macam main squash. haha, fanatik gila, menyapu pun nak macam squash. tp tu ahhh back to the vacuum thingy, mahal gila babi doh, rm350 at its cheapest, paling mahal rm1k. DH mula2 ckp klu bende tu dlm 200bux, boleh beli, tapi aku tak dapat duit blanje ah. hei, ape kene mengene vacuum dgn duit blanje? aku buat keje rumah kot. bayar ahhh gaji. plus bende tu necessity, sape soh sebok nak pakai carpet dlm bilik, haaa.
Dulu aku ada ingat DH ckp, nnt klu dah kawin and ada keje, klu aku nak beli apa2, aku kene pakai duit gaji aku, takbole mintak dia. haha, aku taknak keje ahh camni. aku nak mintak kat DH je sume bende. asal plak? sbb dia laki aku laa, and he's responsible for my needs. my friend penah bgtau that, klu DH nak beli barang, dia kene beli kat aku skali. dia takbole la nak beli barang untuk dia tapi tak mampu nak beli untuk aku, unless bende tu mmg crucial la dia nak kene ada. and he should be getting me something of a similar value to what he has, or neither of us gets anything. klu tak it wont be fair. who says life is unfair? most of the time unfair sbb kita yang buat jadi unfair and then claims of being the injured party. hahaha, weeeeeiiiiirrrrddddd.
i feel like going to the gym today. wanna run run run squat squat squat lift lift lift then go swimming. tah buat tah tidak. haha btw kawan2, aku dah gemok ye. menyampah betul ai. nasib baik gemok sikit for a cause. tapi tu ahh, aku ingat bole maintain kot if i dont miss my workouts. gota start eating healthy now.
Friday, July 22, 2011
DH's cousins
the pictures am about to post are actually last weekends pics. malas punye pasal nak transfer masuk dlm pc, maka lambatlah gambar tersebut diwarwarkan.(photos are taken with my sony tx5.camera yang luarannye suda seperti jahanam tetapi function still like new)
This was at (rahsia) and the longest time i had spent in a pool since holidays started. masa aku kat usm, gila punye jakun lama tak swimming, ,evertime i went to the pool mesti i spend like an hour or 2. swim smpi bengkak badan, ahaha. skarang, malas2 je, bila tgk tu nak pegi, bile tak tgk tu, takpe je ahh. adakah sbb aku mengandung yang aku jadi pemalas sebegini? haha. cousin DH yang jadi mangsa keadaan tu kesian betul.dia pakai trunk tu(which klu tak silap aku, bukan trunk pun, suar mandi tapi pompuan punye) patu bende tu longgar la jugak. senang nak tarik. abang dia jahat gila g cabut suar dia so he's left to be naked in the pool. i find it hilarious, yelahh, cz he's family, tapi tetiba ada cina ni bru nak swim tekejut when she immersed he head into the water(she was wearing goggles) patu dia terus g komplen kat guard, hahaha. mcm babi je. padan muka ko tak lalu nak berenang. kitorang ahh conquer pool. all thanks to kasyah, the naked boy :D
kurik ni mmg geng aku la beb, dia suka tgk squash doh.haha, aku bukak tv nak tgk cimb malaysian open smalam, and he immediately jumped onto the television cabinet and sat right in front of the telly.now thats my kind of cat ;)
smalam DH and me kitorang balik hari ke kemaman nak amek e'ek. i drove on the highway, DH took the curvy ones, patu balik mmg penat gile ah sng cite. tapi ok laa sbb bawak fiesta. seblum ni bawak aveo, 150 da begegar. putra pun bukan bole rembat sgt, silap2 temperature naik. aku tekan 180 ok lagi haha tak rasa laju pun. bagus kete ni. minyak? parak gak. maybe sbb speed aku tak consistent. klu tak aku rasa saving gak la kete tu. e'ek plak as i feared, telah dijangkiti kutu, so were going to have to bring her to the vet asap. sbb aku jadi gatal2 bila bulu kucing kotor(berkutu) kene kulit aku. aku rasa byk cacing, tu yang aku gatal lebih tu, so nak kene deworm kot. however, despite the unfortunate mite attack, e'ek da jadi gemok gila babi! haha, berat sehh. and her face looks more of a mainecoon now. i dont have pictures of her yet, sbb aku malas nak masukkan mmc dlm camera. nnt bila bawak pegi vet aku letak ahh gambar.
i remembered my aunt once told me
'youre already married, now lets work on mending relationships'
how am i supposed to try and mend something that does not want to be mended, but prefers to stick to their own beliefs and pride? huuuu, tough call ni bro. of course, in the end, sumenye terletak pada diri sendiri. takpayah nak puaskan hati with 'if aku tak dapat dia then nobody will' takde gunanya pun.
i feel fat. i think i wanna go for a jog.
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| DH and me |
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| we look like retards wakakaka |
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| DH's cousin(mangsa keadaan) |
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| Jack Black endon. with his nacho wife. |
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| Aku buat ape kat DH sehh hahaha |
This was at (rahsia) and the longest time i had spent in a pool since holidays started. masa aku kat usm, gila punye jakun lama tak swimming, ,evertime i went to the pool mesti i spend like an hour or 2. swim smpi bengkak badan, ahaha. skarang, malas2 je, bila tgk tu nak pegi, bile tak tgk tu, takpe je ahh. adakah sbb aku mengandung yang aku jadi pemalas sebegini? haha. cousin DH yang jadi mangsa keadaan tu kesian betul.dia pakai trunk tu(which klu tak silap aku, bukan trunk pun, suar mandi tapi pompuan punye) patu bende tu longgar la jugak. senang nak tarik. abang dia jahat gila g cabut suar dia so he's left to be naked in the pool. i find it hilarious, yelahh, cz he's family, tapi tetiba ada cina ni bru nak swim tekejut when she immersed he head into the water(she was wearing goggles) patu dia terus g komplen kat guard, hahaha. mcm babi je. padan muka ko tak lalu nak berenang. kitorang ahh conquer pool. all thanks to kasyah, the naked boy :D
kurik ni mmg geng aku la beb, dia suka tgk squash doh.haha, aku bukak tv nak tgk cimb malaysian open smalam, and he immediately jumped onto the television cabinet and sat right in front of the telly.now thats my kind of cat ;)
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| ke sbb dia tgk kasey brown?kucing jantan kann. |
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| mata dok ikut bola.klu kurik reti main, konfem bole jadi star! |
smalam DH and me kitorang balik hari ke kemaman nak amek e'ek. i drove on the highway, DH took the curvy ones, patu balik mmg penat gile ah sng cite. tapi ok laa sbb bawak fiesta. seblum ni bawak aveo, 150 da begegar. putra pun bukan bole rembat sgt, silap2 temperature naik. aku tekan 180 ok lagi haha tak rasa laju pun. bagus kete ni. minyak? parak gak. maybe sbb speed aku tak consistent. klu tak aku rasa saving gak la kete tu. e'ek plak as i feared, telah dijangkiti kutu, so were going to have to bring her to the vet asap. sbb aku jadi gatal2 bila bulu kucing kotor(berkutu) kene kulit aku. aku rasa byk cacing, tu yang aku gatal lebih tu, so nak kene deworm kot. however, despite the unfortunate mite attack, e'ek da jadi gemok gila babi! haha, berat sehh. and her face looks more of a mainecoon now. i dont have pictures of her yet, sbb aku malas nak masukkan mmc dlm camera. nnt bila bawak pegi vet aku letak ahh gambar.
i remembered my aunt once told me
'youre already married, now lets work on mending relationships'
how am i supposed to try and mend something that does not want to be mended, but prefers to stick to their own beliefs and pride? huuuu, tough call ni bro. of course, in the end, sumenye terletak pada diri sendiri. takpayah nak puaskan hati with 'if aku tak dapat dia then nobody will' takde gunanya pun.
i feel fat. i think i wanna go for a jog.
Wednesday, July 20, 2011
Lousy
i made asam pedas ikan pari today. i dont remember the right ingredients my mum usually uses for the dish, but whatever. ada laa jugak rasa dia sikit2.main stuff i blended: kunyit hidup, halia, bawang putih sket, bawang banyak cili kering, cili merah.. aku cam konfius nak kene letak lengkuas ke tak. so sbb aku ragu2 maka aku tak letak. ke sepatutnye letak? hish aku tak tau la! pening2. anyways, end product tastes ok kot, sbb i feel like vomiting eating it (biasa ahhh pregnant kann ahahaha) so cant really use my taste buds, aku rasa je mual, tapi muntah tak, alhamdulillah alahan aku tak teruk mana ahh stok bole control lagi.. MIL says kene taruk belacan. mak aku letak belacan ke tak? aku pun tak ingat. tapi aku rasa macam tak, sbb mak aku jarang guna belacan for stuff other than sambal belacan.
oh and recently aku g check kat clinic, the doctor confirms me of being 10weeks pregnant. dia bagi aku a months supply of folic acid(utk tumbesaran janin) and then dia kata dah habis ubat bole dtg lagi skali bukak buku merah, patu klu nak scan bole scan tgk apa suda jadi dgn ini anak. haha ko tau, i was trembling when i waited for the doctor to call me in, sbb aku mcm cuak and takut klu dr tu ckp im no longer pregnant, yelahh i did my own urine test around 2-3 weeks ago, which is quite a period of time, so saspen laa kan bende dah takde, plus aku plak exercise mcm biasa. haaa. bila dia bagitau aku yang urine test positive, aku punyela excited smpi lupa dahh nak tanya stuff about the pregnancy. yang paling aku nak tau skarang is what i can and cannot eat. i dont want people simpy telling me that i can eat this and cant eat that just because theyve had experience being pregnant before, because lain orang lain pantang. i want to know what the doctor has to say about this, and about kurik. can he be around me while im pregnant or does he have to go? klu bole aku taknak la put kurik someplace else, sayang doh, bosan2 aku dok sorang kat rumah dia ada la kann nak teman aku. i did remember to ask about exercise though. dr ckp bole jogging, swimming, best! ni pun seb bek DH's aunt ada skali time tu and dia teringat aku suka beriadah so she asked.
when i got back to the house, DH's aunts were all excited about me being pregnant, haha. siap cari nama bagai, patu nama panggilan utk sume orang. and how am i gonna take care of the baby and all, what i should do in the future, guessing wether its a boy or a girl yadayadayada. best la jugak kan mcm ni, because they care and make me feel wanted. but if only la kan, if only laa my parents terbukak pintu hati nak terima family aku yang aku pepandai buat sendiri ni, it would be much better la, tapi klu dah taknak, aku nak buat macam mana, ada plakk orang luar yang dok kata 'ada ke patut dia expect you guys(my parents) nak terima je lepas dah buat bende macam ni' susah ahh. haha, takpe ahh, orang pandai kan, amek phD. betul la kot apa dia cakap tuh, tak patut parents aku terima my marriage after i turned my backs on them. ah well, terpulang la.
last weekend the whole family went for karaoke kat redbox pavillion, haha aku dah lama tak karoke beb. mula2 nak nyanyi time dorang suruh tu, ketar2 gakk ahh aku, ahahahahha, tapi bila dah nyanyi, aku rasa mcm taknak letak mic tu plak. too bad i came late along with DH, DH's sister and their cousin. so tak byk lagu sgt aku nyanyi. first song aku nyanyi lagu pebret.. merisik khabar by sudirman. MIL aku sampai menangis beb aku nyanyi ahahahahah jgn main2. tapi ye ahh, lagu sedih. seb bek aku tak feeling sgt time nyanyi tuh, klu tak konfem nangis nye. sbb aku teringat lagu 'untukmu ibu' by mamat yang time dia kecik, tim besar suara dia mcm derhaka dahh hahaha. tu beru teringat lagu aku dah sebak tak tahann, klu aku nyanyi time tu, mau tak kene benti g toilet melalak sepuas2nye. hhahaha. sesungguhnye mmg aku rindu kat mak aku. i am always ready to balik, with DH and the rest, tapi klu dah dorang takleh nak terima kitorang, and choose to make things harder... maka aku kene rindu macam ni jela, dugaan tuhan. aku redha je. everything happens for a reason.
Oh! Ibu
Kau disiram bayu pagi
Kehilangan terasa kini
Dan kesepian
Dan aku
Bagai purnama gerhana
Di ibarat lautan kering
Tiada tempat ku layarkan
Hasratku ini
Masih belum sempat
Kubuktikannya kepadamu
Ibu tersayang
Kucurahkan rasa hati
Ku tatapi potret mu berulang kali
Kurenungkan kalimah yang diberi
Tuhan Yang Esa
Ampuni dosa ibu
Tempatkan mereka
Di antara kekasih kekasihMu
Oh! Ibu
Kau kasih sejati
Kutaburkan doa
Untukmu ibu
Ampunilah dosaku
Sejak ku dilahirkan
Hingga akhir hayatmu
Saat ini
Kuteruskan hidup
Tanpa bersamamu ibu
Ibu...
Kini aku hilang tempat mengadu
Oh ibu, damailah engkau disana
Ku taburkan doa mewangi, hadiah dari anakmu
sedih sial lagu ni, amek ahh aku bagi mak aku. ok bye.
oh and recently aku g check kat clinic, the doctor confirms me of being 10weeks pregnant. dia bagi aku a months supply of folic acid(utk tumbesaran janin) and then dia kata dah habis ubat bole dtg lagi skali bukak buku merah, patu klu nak scan bole scan tgk apa suda jadi dgn ini anak. haha ko tau, i was trembling when i waited for the doctor to call me in, sbb aku mcm cuak and takut klu dr tu ckp im no longer pregnant, yelahh i did my own urine test around 2-3 weeks ago, which is quite a period of time, so saspen laa kan bende dah takde, plus aku plak exercise mcm biasa. haaa. bila dia bagitau aku yang urine test positive, aku punyela excited smpi lupa dahh nak tanya stuff about the pregnancy. yang paling aku nak tau skarang is what i can and cannot eat. i dont want people simpy telling me that i can eat this and cant eat that just because theyve had experience being pregnant before, because lain orang lain pantang. i want to know what the doctor has to say about this, and about kurik. can he be around me while im pregnant or does he have to go? klu bole aku taknak la put kurik someplace else, sayang doh, bosan2 aku dok sorang kat rumah dia ada la kann nak teman aku. i did remember to ask about exercise though. dr ckp bole jogging, swimming, best! ni pun seb bek DH's aunt ada skali time tu and dia teringat aku suka beriadah so she asked.
when i got back to the house, DH's aunts were all excited about me being pregnant, haha. siap cari nama bagai, patu nama panggilan utk sume orang. and how am i gonna take care of the baby and all, what i should do in the future, guessing wether its a boy or a girl yadayadayada. best la jugak kan mcm ni, because they care and make me feel wanted. but if only la kan, if only laa my parents terbukak pintu hati nak terima family aku yang aku pepandai buat sendiri ni, it would be much better la, tapi klu dah taknak, aku nak buat macam mana, ada plakk orang luar yang dok kata 'ada ke patut dia expect you guys(my parents) nak terima je lepas dah buat bende macam ni' susah ahh. haha, takpe ahh, orang pandai kan, amek phD. betul la kot apa dia cakap tuh, tak patut parents aku terima my marriage after i turned my backs on them. ah well, terpulang la.
last weekend the whole family went for karaoke kat redbox pavillion, haha aku dah lama tak karoke beb. mula2 nak nyanyi time dorang suruh tu, ketar2 gakk ahh aku, ahahahahha, tapi bila dah nyanyi, aku rasa mcm taknak letak mic tu plak. too bad i came late along with DH, DH's sister and their cousin. so tak byk lagu sgt aku nyanyi. first song aku nyanyi lagu pebret.. merisik khabar by sudirman. MIL aku sampai menangis beb aku nyanyi ahahahahah jgn main2. tapi ye ahh, lagu sedih. seb bek aku tak feeling sgt time nyanyi tuh, klu tak konfem nangis nye. sbb aku teringat lagu 'untukmu ibu' by mamat yang time dia kecik, tim besar suara dia mcm derhaka dahh hahaha. tu beru teringat lagu aku dah sebak tak tahann, klu aku nyanyi time tu, mau tak kene benti g toilet melalak sepuas2nye. hhahaha. sesungguhnye mmg aku rindu kat mak aku. i am always ready to balik, with DH and the rest, tapi klu dah dorang takleh nak terima kitorang, and choose to make things harder... maka aku kene rindu macam ni jela, dugaan tuhan. aku redha je. everything happens for a reason.
Oh! Ibu
Kau disiram bayu pagi
Kehilangan terasa kini
Dan kesepian
Dan aku
Bagai purnama gerhana
Di ibarat lautan kering
Tiada tempat ku layarkan
Hasratku ini
Masih belum sempat
Kubuktikannya kepadamu
Ibu tersayang
Kucurahkan rasa hati
Ku tatapi potret mu berulang kali
Kurenungkan kalimah yang diberi
Tuhan Yang Esa
Ampuni dosa ibu
Tempatkan mereka
Di antara kekasih kekasihMu
Oh! Ibu
Kau kasih sejati
Kutaburkan doa
Untukmu ibu
Ampunilah dosaku
Sejak ku dilahirkan
Hingga akhir hayatmu
Saat ini
Kuteruskan hidup
Tanpa bersamamu ibu
Ibu...
Kini aku hilang tempat mengadu
Oh ibu, damailah engkau disana
Ku taburkan doa mewangi, hadiah dari anakmu
sedih sial lagu ni, amek ahh aku bagi mak aku. ok bye.
Thursday, July 14, 2011
Pengubat rinduku!
A few days ago, DH and i, we browsed mudah for kittens, sbb aku teringat e'ek, so aku usha nak cari pengganti sementara, tak bajet pun bole dapat, ratus2 ni byk duit beb, bole beli bende lain yg lagi berpekdah kot. found one thats not too expensive, 4months old, and the owner wanted to sell it for RM800, but we got him to reduce the price to RM600. mula2 kitorang mintak 500 dia takmo bagi doh, kata kucing dia quality bagus la ape taik sume can compare with other ads kat mudah yada2, ok tu aku tak kesa pun snarnye, marketing strategy kan. patu DH kata ok la takpe 600 kita amek malam ni jugak. nego2, lepas dia kata nak tanya bini dia dulu la apa sume, dia kata OK. hahahaha, aku suka gila time tu. ye ahh aku kan suka membazir duit ni, DH plak kata dia rasa tenang bila dapat rabakkan poket dia so kira win win situation la kan. anyways, time dia bawak turun kucing tu, dia taruk dlm bakul nasik lemak yang ada cover bole bukak tutup tu, kucing ni jantan, bajet beli nak mate him with e'ek, tak tau ahh nnt tgk camne, e'ek tu gila babi garang. patu lepas skali dua kawin, DH cakap nak neuter mamat tu.
haha, comel kan. warna dia tuh aku suka, silver2 gituu. oh oh, and nama dia kitorang taruk 'kurik' haha. its mother is a silver longhaired chinchilla, tapi aku rasa dia macam tak dapat je longhair tu, kaler dgn muka dah sama, longhair je tak. whatever la, ok je. rezeki dia ahh tu duduk dgn kitorang. klu tak DH tak beli kan kan kan.
pe'el kurik ni suka gila menggigit kulit manusia, i dont know why. e'ek takde pun cmtu, even my previous cats tak camtu, stakat gerak2 jari, mana ada dorang menggelupur nak kejar. ni tak, kaki gerak sikit kene terkam, tangan gerak sikit pun kene terkam gak. kuku tajam gila lak tuh, slalu kucing aku kuku takde ahh tajam cam dia nih. klu takde pisau kat dapur bole tumpang kuku buat potong ikan.
ever since aku dpt e'ek, aku slalu ahh belagak dgn mak aku sbb kucing aku lagi cantik dari kucing dia hahaha, ye ahh kucing kat umah tu DLH je beb, aku punya ada laaa breed2 dia. tak main ahh campur2 kucing biasa. plus kucing aku bersihh, kucing kat umah banyak kutu. eee.haha. patu kucing DH jaga. tapi aku bgtau mak aku, yang aku letak kat umah mmbr, hahaha kenapa aku tak bagitau DH yang jaga? sbb nama DH membawa kemarahan didalam rumah, so aku buat diam je. smpi mak aku suruh bawak balik kucing time cuti sem haritu, aku kata taknak nnt kene jangkit kutu sume. mmg reason aku taknak bawak balik is because aku takut e'ek kene kutu, and aku takut dia jadi koto sbb rumah mak aku compound besar, patu kucing2 free to roam in and out of the house. i dont want to keep it in a cage because kesian ahh menatang tu, dia nak bebas gak en.so tu ah. DH bagi je aku bawak balik rumah, aku je taknak. kang kene kutu satu hal plakkk nak hilangkan kutu kutu tuh, dah arr bulu e'ek tu tebal gile. nak botakkan macam syg la plak. haha, skarang ada tambahan lagi satu kucing cantik, mmg kucing aku tak kalah ahhhh dgn kucing2 mak aku tuhh. dahla kucing2 i ni bersih tau. wakakak. jgn jeless ok makcik mariaa.
i want to play a new game, but nothing interesting is out yet, batman kuar november cmtu kot. uncharted haritu main 2 hari je sula habiss haha rental punya pasal. klu tak aku main lambat2 sket, lambat habis best ahh. 90% of the game aku main, lagi 10% DH main sbb aku takut nak main yang ada zombie tu hihihi pentakut. skarang ni haiyaa, aku nak main gt5 malas nak pasang wayar2 steering dia, tak suka ahh serabut2. nnt rasa main tak selesa klu aku nampak semak sgt. ada satu rockstar game yg tak habis lagi main, L.A Noire. tapi aku malas nak tukar disc, sbb DH main gt5 kejap ni. eh sebenarnya aku nak main ke taknak ni? apa pasat laa sgt malas.
tadi aku masak ikan stim limau. aku rasa sedap je, nama pun stim limau, mesti ahh rasanya limau beb. DH said masam laa pahit laa whatever la, haha, aku malas nak kesa sgt, men just cant help complaining. my mum gets all emo when my dad complains about her cooking. dulu aku camtu gakk, tapi skarang aku tak kesa pun. yang aku taksuka is when orang try nak ubah the way i cook. jgn nak pandai2 suruh aku ganti one ingredient with another sbb dah aku pakai yang tu, yang tu jela, aku tuka bila aku rasa perlu. if DH doesnt like it being too sour with a bitter twist, then i'll have it altered to his tastebuds next time. no problem.
i feel like running. lamanye tak lariii
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| sad face. he's a semiflat |
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| malas nak layan |
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| tgk ape weii! |
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| nak makan chachos |
haha, comel kan. warna dia tuh aku suka, silver2 gituu. oh oh, and nama dia kitorang taruk 'kurik' haha. its mother is a silver longhaired chinchilla, tapi aku rasa dia macam tak dapat je longhair tu, kaler dgn muka dah sama, longhair je tak. whatever la, ok je. rezeki dia ahh tu duduk dgn kitorang. klu tak DH tak beli kan kan kan.
pe'el kurik ni suka gila menggigit kulit manusia, i dont know why. e'ek takde pun cmtu, even my previous cats tak camtu, stakat gerak2 jari, mana ada dorang menggelupur nak kejar. ni tak, kaki gerak sikit kene terkam, tangan gerak sikit pun kene terkam gak. kuku tajam gila lak tuh, slalu kucing aku kuku takde ahh tajam cam dia nih. klu takde pisau kat dapur bole tumpang kuku buat potong ikan.
ever since aku dpt e'ek, aku slalu ahh belagak dgn mak aku sbb kucing aku lagi cantik dari kucing dia hahaha, ye ahh kucing kat umah tu DLH je beb, aku punya ada laaa breed2 dia. tak main ahh campur2 kucing biasa. plus kucing aku bersihh, kucing kat umah banyak kutu. eee.haha. patu kucing DH jaga. tapi aku bgtau mak aku, yang aku letak kat umah mmbr, hahaha kenapa aku tak bagitau DH yang jaga? sbb nama DH membawa kemarahan didalam rumah, so aku buat diam je. smpi mak aku suruh bawak balik kucing time cuti sem haritu, aku kata taknak nnt kene jangkit kutu sume. mmg reason aku taknak bawak balik is because aku takut e'ek kene kutu, and aku takut dia jadi koto sbb rumah mak aku compound besar, patu kucing2 free to roam in and out of the house. i dont want to keep it in a cage because kesian ahh menatang tu, dia nak bebas gak en.so tu ah. DH bagi je aku bawak balik rumah, aku je taknak. kang kene kutu satu hal plakkk nak hilangkan kutu kutu tuh, dah arr bulu e'ek tu tebal gile. nak botakkan macam syg la plak. haha, skarang ada tambahan lagi satu kucing cantik, mmg kucing aku tak kalah ahhhh dgn kucing2 mak aku tuhh. dahla kucing2 i ni bersih tau. wakakak. jgn jeless ok makcik mariaa.
i want to play a new game, but nothing interesting is out yet, batman kuar november cmtu kot. uncharted haritu main 2 hari je sula habiss haha rental punya pasal. klu tak aku main lambat2 sket, lambat habis best ahh. 90% of the game aku main, lagi 10% DH main sbb aku takut nak main yang ada zombie tu hihihi pentakut. skarang ni haiyaa, aku nak main gt5 malas nak pasang wayar2 steering dia, tak suka ahh serabut2. nnt rasa main tak selesa klu aku nampak semak sgt. ada satu rockstar game yg tak habis lagi main, L.A Noire. tapi aku malas nak tukar disc, sbb DH main gt5 kejap ni. eh sebenarnya aku nak main ke taknak ni? apa pasat laa sgt malas.
tadi aku masak ikan stim limau. aku rasa sedap je, nama pun stim limau, mesti ahh rasanya limau beb. DH said masam laa pahit laa whatever la, haha, aku malas nak kesa sgt, men just cant help complaining. my mum gets all emo when my dad complains about her cooking. dulu aku camtu gakk, tapi skarang aku tak kesa pun. yang aku taksuka is when orang try nak ubah the way i cook. jgn nak pandai2 suruh aku ganti one ingredient with another sbb dah aku pakai yang tu, yang tu jela, aku tuka bila aku rasa perlu. if DH doesnt like it being too sour with a bitter twist, then i'll have it altered to his tastebuds next time. no problem.
i feel like running. lamanye tak lariii
Wednesday, July 13, 2011
boring day
today is super boring, DH is out doing his work, and i had nothing to do apart from getting the house cleaned, main macak2, water the plants yayaya...and suddenly i feel like,i miss e'ek.sigh.
for those who dont know e'ek tu menatang amende, its my cat that DH got me for my birthday last year. we left her at kemaman because DH wanted to try and get her pregnant with one of his friends cats. sebenarnye aku reluctant laa nak tinggal kat sana sbb kucing aku tu bersih hokeyy, kutu seketul pun takde. aku takmo ahh nnt balik penuh kutu kurap plak, tau2 laaa tmpt terbukak luas cmtu, byk kucing kurap everywhere. yg dok jaga kucing tu plak, bukan kurung e'ek pun, yelahh, kurung kang kesian. klu kucing2 kawan DH tu takde kutu takpe ahh, sedap sikit hati aku huhu, kira aku rasa mcm mak dia ahh ni, klu kawin dgn kucing bebas kutu, apa salahnya, mcm aku kawin dgn DH ahh. DH bukan ada kutu pun, so apa yang nak marah sgt aku kawin dgn dia? kekekeke. ish. rindu doh, rasa macam nak bawak balik sini skarang je.
weird how people think they can twist and turn the words of god, suka2 hati nak kata bende haram halal. bende simple je, so keep it simple, no need to complicate things. tak penah plakk aku dgr islam ni agama menyusahkan. mungkin bagi deme menyusahkan la kot ,tu yang dah bertahun tak solat with the reason of 'byk masalah mcm mana nak solat'.. apakah? pape jela, janji you all puas hati. sbb ni pasal nak puaskan hati kan? haa aku tauuu aku tauuuu, klu tak puaskan hati amende lagi namenye?cuba pikir, if laaa family aku dapat aku balik, without DH, then what will happen? hati tu puas laa sbb dapat apa yang nak, tapi aku ni jadi apa? anak aku yang dikatakan haram ni camna? i doubt klu aku dirembat balik, orang nak treat me the same, i dont mind that beb, tapi anak aku la nnt camne, kesian kat dia. mak aku pun rasa sedih bila sedara mara belah ayah aku tak layan anak2 dia time dorang nak g overseas and all, ni plak aku klu orang tak layan anak aku langsung? better be with people who wants to cherish my child, yg takda perasaan dendam kesumat dari awal. dendam ni bahaya ooo. haha nak kata itu balasan utk aku and anak aku kene tempiasnye? ikut aaa, tuhan yang lebih tau.
about me wanting to share being pregnant with my mum, aku rasa tak mungkin ahh kot, bukan sbb DH tak bagi je, tapi aku rasa parents aku tak hingin pun tgk anak aku. yelah, dorang kan kata aku kawin tak sah, anak kuar anak haram, so takpe laa klu mcm tu. aku redha je. kukulukuluu! haha.
for those who dont know e'ek tu menatang amende, its my cat that DH got me for my birthday last year. we left her at kemaman because DH wanted to try and get her pregnant with one of his friends cats. sebenarnye aku reluctant laa nak tinggal kat sana sbb kucing aku tu bersih hokeyy, kutu seketul pun takde. aku takmo ahh nnt balik penuh kutu kurap plak, tau2 laaa tmpt terbukak luas cmtu, byk kucing kurap everywhere. yg dok jaga kucing tu plak, bukan kurung e'ek pun, yelahh, kurung kang kesian. klu kucing2 kawan DH tu takde kutu takpe ahh, sedap sikit hati aku huhu, kira aku rasa mcm mak dia ahh ni, klu kawin dgn kucing bebas kutu, apa salahnya, mcm aku kawin dgn DH ahh. DH bukan ada kutu pun, so apa yang nak marah sgt aku kawin dgn dia? kekekeke. ish. rindu doh, rasa macam nak bawak balik sini skarang je.
weird how people think they can twist and turn the words of god, suka2 hati nak kata bende haram halal. bende simple je, so keep it simple, no need to complicate things. tak penah plakk aku dgr islam ni agama menyusahkan. mungkin bagi deme menyusahkan la kot ,tu yang dah bertahun tak solat with the reason of 'byk masalah mcm mana nak solat'.. apakah? pape jela, janji you all puas hati. sbb ni pasal nak puaskan hati kan? haa aku tauuu aku tauuuu, klu tak puaskan hati amende lagi namenye?cuba pikir, if laaa family aku dapat aku balik, without DH, then what will happen? hati tu puas laa sbb dapat apa yang nak, tapi aku ni jadi apa? anak aku yang dikatakan haram ni camna? i doubt klu aku dirembat balik, orang nak treat me the same, i dont mind that beb, tapi anak aku la nnt camne, kesian kat dia. mak aku pun rasa sedih bila sedara mara belah ayah aku tak layan anak2 dia time dorang nak g overseas and all, ni plak aku klu orang tak layan anak aku langsung? better be with people who wants to cherish my child, yg takda perasaan dendam kesumat dari awal. dendam ni bahaya ooo. haha nak kata itu balasan utk aku and anak aku kene tempiasnye? ikut aaa, tuhan yang lebih tau.
about me wanting to share being pregnant with my mum, aku rasa tak mungkin ahh kot, bukan sbb DH tak bagi je, tapi aku rasa parents aku tak hingin pun tgk anak aku. yelah, dorang kan kata aku kawin tak sah, anak kuar anak haram, so takpe laa klu mcm tu. aku redha je. kukulukuluu! haha.
Monday, July 11, 2011
Today is
Tuesday, 12th of July 2011. whats with the date? haha. harini aniberseri aku ngan DH! nothing to be excited about pun, tapi tu ah, mcm kejapp je dah setaun. DH told me to spend the day by finishing my videogame, (oh how romantic) im 88% through, and now im up to a stage where there are weird, almost zombie-like creatures moving really fast and kills my character even before i get to do anything. i get goosebumps playing it so i decided to take a break and play pokemon instead. unfortunately i got really tired of levelling my pokemons, so i turned to the internet. browsed a few blogs, update mine...
yesterday DH and i went to catch a late night movie, Transformers 3. reading most of the comments on the movie before saying that its boring, made me feel like i din want want to watch. but since DH had been wanting to see it, i cant help tagging along. after all, it would be boring if we stayed at home all the time. tak remaja la beb! huahua.
the story runs for approximately 2h30mins. first 2 hours, ok laaa, but when it got to the last 30 minutes, i was like ,when is this gonna end? its like being dragged nowhere by action, when actually it could be done there and then. the main cause of the havoc are the pillars connecting cybertron and earth, and that the task of the u.s authorities is to cut off the connection by destroying one of the main pillars. the autobots couldve done it in one swing but instead they needed to fight everyone off first. logically, if there's a connection between two planets, bad guys on both with more coming from one side, shouldnt you stop the connection first so that the bad guys wouldnt multiply in numbers to risen the difficulty level of your task of destroying them? but whatever, the director wants it to be as so, so yea. whatever. the graphics are cool though. maybe they were trying too hard to show how cool their graphics can be that they forget the original purpose of the transformers.again, whatever.
oh yeaa i forgot, DH did say we'd be dining out for today's occasion, dont know where though. hope its someplace where the food is good. im craving for spicy stuff. but DH says i shouldnt be eating anything spicy, cz it concerns the details of the baby, awhhh. aku nak makan cili padi 20 bijik! food, to me, tastes bland without the heat of chillies. but hey, its for the best kannn.
lagisatu bende. DH dgn senyap2nye smalam beli bucket seat to be paired with his steering wheel. 200 lebih katanya. sscus je, but still, tak bgtau aku! haha, mesti dia malas nak dgr aku bebel klu dia bgtau.
stylo jugak la, i have to admit. mula2 aku marah sbb dia tak bgtau aku but then aku cam buat bongok patu ok ah. haha. next time please bear in mind to tell me first before deciding upon anything ok syg. evenso, he could not yet play gt5, sbb aku tgh main uncharted and i wont allow the disc to be taken out from the console muahahaha. and because DH syg aku (or maybe dia syg duit dia cz klu habis main cepat, lagi cepat dpt duit balik) dia biar je tak dpt test kusi baru.
smpena anniversary kita ni, i want to say that i love you very much and i hope the feeling lasts forever, that jodoh kita berpanjangan smpi keakhir hayat, you be a good son, parent, husband, jgn lupa solat sbb orang tak solat tuhan takmo tolong. ingat Allah slalu, ingat family slalu, ingat i slalu sbb klu u tak ingat i nnt i macam marah la jugak. akhirkata, jom kita pegi beli groceries. .
yesterday DH and i went to catch a late night movie, Transformers 3. reading most of the comments on the movie before saying that its boring, made me feel like i din want want to watch. but since DH had been wanting to see it, i cant help tagging along. after all, it would be boring if we stayed at home all the time. tak remaja la beb! huahua.
the story runs for approximately 2h30mins. first 2 hours, ok laaa, but when it got to the last 30 minutes, i was like ,when is this gonna end? its like being dragged nowhere by action, when actually it could be done there and then. the main cause of the havoc are the pillars connecting cybertron and earth, and that the task of the u.s authorities is to cut off the connection by destroying one of the main pillars. the autobots couldve done it in one swing but instead they needed to fight everyone off first. logically, if there's a connection between two planets, bad guys on both with more coming from one side, shouldnt you stop the connection first so that the bad guys wouldnt multiply in numbers to risen the difficulty level of your task of destroying them? but whatever, the director wants it to be as so, so yea. whatever. the graphics are cool though. maybe they were trying too hard to show how cool their graphics can be that they forget the original purpose of the transformers.again, whatever.
oh yeaa i forgot, DH did say we'd be dining out for today's occasion, dont know where though. hope its someplace where the food is good. im craving for spicy stuff. but DH says i shouldnt be eating anything spicy, cz it concerns the details of the baby, awhhh. aku nak makan cili padi 20 bijik! food, to me, tastes bland without the heat of chillies. but hey, its for the best kannn.
lagisatu bende. DH dgn senyap2nye smalam beli bucket seat to be paired with his steering wheel. 200 lebih katanya. sscus je, but still, tak bgtau aku! haha, mesti dia malas nak dgr aku bebel klu dia bgtau.
smpena anniversary kita ni, i want to say that i love you very much and i hope the feeling lasts forever, that jodoh kita berpanjangan smpi keakhir hayat, you be a good son, parent, husband, jgn lupa solat sbb orang tak solat tuhan takmo tolong. ingat Allah slalu, ingat family slalu, ingat i slalu sbb klu u tak ingat i nnt i macam marah la jugak. akhirkata, jom kita pegi beli groceries. .
Sunday, July 10, 2011
sunday
its the second time that the whole family (except for SIL) went out for lunch at Marche. first time there felt kinda exciting cz everything looks fresh and the food looks good, this time i got the feeling that sumenye propaganda sahaja.. haha. they should chnage the menu often you know, otherwise it'll get really boring. i dont feel like going there for the third time, at least not soon enough.
DH and i as usual, merayap someplace else while his parents went to shop for their stuff. mula2 we went to Gamer's Hideout, played gt5 on the sscus seat again sbb saja nak bazir masa tak bende nak buat(haha DH tak muat dudukk) and went browsing for new games to purchase. i found uncharted drakes fortune, but DH said its ancient and not worth buying. sedih ok time tuu tak dapat beli. but then kat situ ada lagi satu kedai game, where they have uncharted for rentals so yea, DH rented it for me instead. a happy woman i am :D jimat laa, deposit nak amek game tu kene bayar rm150, first week pinjam 20bux, consecutive weeks 10bux. nnt dah habis main duit dapat balik, and bukan aku nak main lagi pun klu dah habis, tapi tu ahh, aku suka tgk ada banyak2 game kat rak tu, hahahaha. materialistic! i love you DH! tq very much. finally selepas 2 bulan kempunan nak main uncharted ni, aku dapat gak men. wohoo. DH ckp nak value for money, so kene habiskan cepat2,klu tak nnt lagi lama sewa lagi kene bayar lebih. haha. selupa cina la kamu, semua pun mau value for money punya haiyaa ma sohai.
bila aku beranak nanti, im going to train my child to become a squash pro. haha.nicol david started at 5 didnt she? im gonna make mine start training while still in diapers! malaysia's gonna have another world champion then. hahahahahahaha. no lahh, unless he/she wants to, then ok la, im not gonna force him/her into doing something dia taknak buat. tapi mmg aku nak suruh main sukan la, taknak serious pun, atleast be active in extra curricular stuff. adds the excitement to ones life, activities. nnt takde la dia jadi timid sgt.
lets go swimming!
DH and i as usual, merayap someplace else while his parents went to shop for their stuff. mula2 we went to Gamer's Hideout, played gt5 on the sscus seat again sbb saja nak bazir masa tak bende nak buat(haha DH tak muat dudukk) and went browsing for new games to purchase. i found uncharted drakes fortune, but DH said its ancient and not worth buying. sedih ok time tuu tak dapat beli. but then kat situ ada lagi satu kedai game, where they have uncharted for rentals so yea, DH rented it for me instead. a happy woman i am :D jimat laa, deposit nak amek game tu kene bayar rm150, first week pinjam 20bux, consecutive weeks 10bux. nnt dah habis main duit dapat balik, and bukan aku nak main lagi pun klu dah habis, tapi tu ahh, aku suka tgk ada banyak2 game kat rak tu, hahahaha. materialistic! i love you DH! tq very much. finally selepas 2 bulan kempunan nak main uncharted ni, aku dapat gak men. wohoo. DH ckp nak value for money, so kene habiskan cepat2,klu tak nnt lagi lama sewa lagi kene bayar lebih. haha. selupa cina la kamu, semua pun mau value for money punya haiyaa ma sohai.
bila aku beranak nanti, im going to train my child to become a squash pro. haha.nicol david started at 5 didnt she? im gonna make mine start training while still in diapers! malaysia's gonna have another world champion then. hahahahahahaha. no lahh, unless he/she wants to, then ok la, im not gonna force him/her into doing something dia taknak buat. tapi mmg aku nak suruh main sukan la, taknak serious pun, atleast be active in extra curricular stuff. adds the excitement to ones life, activities. nnt takde la dia jadi timid sgt.
lets go swimming!
Saturday, July 9, 2011
I love pokemon!
hi hi hi, hahaha, i forgot to tell you, that recently, keresahan aku pasal buku pokemon tu dah dihilangkan resahnya by DH because he got me this
time jumpe buku tu aku menggelupur gila nak, hahaha. DH cam malas nak layan tapi sbb dia rasa aku comel dia belikan jugak wahahahaha tq syg! barang rare beb, skarang bende ni susah gila nak jumpa sbb dah ada pokemon black and white kan, plus heartgold soulsilver was like, 2 years ago. now im in the process of getting the pokemon diamond cartridge from mudah, tapi masalahnye area rumah aku ni takdak BSN so susah ahhh nak bank in duit, dah delay bape lama dah barang tuh. kat kedai yang aku jumpe buku pokemon tu ada je cartridge pokemon diamond, platinum dgn lagi satu ape tah, tapi tu ahh yang susah nak jumpa dah la, sbb bende dah lama kan. ingat klu ada duit, aku beli je yang tu, tapi takde duit ahhh. wuuu sedih.
skarang aku rasa macam nak cari duit lebih ah since DH's bday is comin soon, tapi camne nak cari? takkan nak keje kat kedai2 sini? i hate working at F&B outlets sbb keje dia macam hectic. klu keje kedai buku syiok gak, tapi jauhh la plak nak pegi. tapi duit masyuk ah, huhu. eh eh, sebenarnya tak syiok mana pun, dulu aku keje kedai buku, penat gila beb, sbb keje like the whole day, bosan nak mampus. mula2 aku ingat keje kedai buku macam ok laa dgn aku because i like to read, and id get to read while working, but i was totally wrong, sbb keje dia lebih kurang macam buruh gak laa, angkat kotak buku berat2, susun, kemas buku yang orang amek baca tak letak balik tempat dia, haduuhhh tension2. pikir duit dia je beb, haha, tu pun aku ponteng bape banyak hari. patut gaji dlm 1400 camtu, aku dpt 900, 1000 je. wakakaka.
i already know what i want to get for DH but the problem is money ah. dpt keje sebulan pun ok,tapi tah bagi tah tidak DH tu. aku boleh je nak mintak duit belanja kat DH smpi cukup nak beli menatang tuh, tapi tak stylo ahh duit tu laki bagi, patu kita bagi laki balik. boring! i want it to be dari titik peluh aku sendiri kasi puas hati lebih. manyak syiok itu macam.
oh oh and about me being pregnant, mmbr aku ckp mcm awal lagi nak pegi clinic. dia kata atleast wait for the signs or dlm 2months tu pegi la. aku dgr jela ckp dia kann because he and his wife are expecting too. DH kata nak cari government punye clinic utk follow up, sbb dia kata private punya mahal, takut nnt takde duit susah. aku tak kesa pun. janji aku ada anak. hahaha. i read in articles online that first 12 weeks are very risky, since miscarriages happen during early weeks of pregnancy. aku mintak doa jela kat tuhan that it sticks. ada rezeki ada, takde then tuhan lagi tau what's best for me.
lately aku rasa nak masak2, tapi macam tak best ah. sbb yang aku konfiden nak buat hanyalah simple dishes, slalu yang masak melayu ni mesti aku refer kat mak aku, sbb aku tak selesa masak tanpa advisorr ahahaha and yang layak jadi advisor tu mak aku je ok. makcik DH boleh je masak, dia ada gak ahh offer nak ajar tapi frankly speaking, i dont trust anyone elses recipes. i only like the way my mum cooks, orang lain punya tu klu sedap nasib la kann tapi aku tak terliur pun nak blajar cara nak masak dia macam mana, sbb aku tau klu mak aku masak pun sedap jugak. too bad for me, bak kata cousin aku, ni balasan utk aku that family aku taknak ckp baik2 dgn aku so aku tak kesa la. masak simple pun simple la. janji laki aku bole makan.
lepas ni nak masak tgk asian food channel jela. tak pun biar org lain masak. tak pun pegi makan luar. lagi sonang :D
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time jumpe buku tu aku menggelupur gila nak, hahaha. DH cam malas nak layan tapi sbb dia rasa aku comel dia belikan jugak wahahahaha tq syg! barang rare beb, skarang bende ni susah gila nak jumpa sbb dah ada pokemon black and white kan, plus heartgold soulsilver was like, 2 years ago. now im in the process of getting the pokemon diamond cartridge from mudah, tapi masalahnye area rumah aku ni takdak BSN so susah ahhh nak bank in duit, dah delay bape lama dah barang tuh. kat kedai yang aku jumpe buku pokemon tu ada je cartridge pokemon diamond, platinum dgn lagi satu ape tah, tapi tu ahh yang susah nak jumpa dah la, sbb bende dah lama kan. ingat klu ada duit, aku beli je yang tu, tapi takde duit ahhh. wuuu sedih.
skarang aku rasa macam nak cari duit lebih ah since DH's bday is comin soon, tapi camne nak cari? takkan nak keje kat kedai2 sini? i hate working at F&B outlets sbb keje dia macam hectic. klu keje kedai buku syiok gak, tapi jauhh la plak nak pegi. tapi duit masyuk ah, huhu. eh eh, sebenarnya tak syiok mana pun, dulu aku keje kedai buku, penat gila beb, sbb keje like the whole day, bosan nak mampus. mula2 aku ingat keje kedai buku macam ok laa dgn aku because i like to read, and id get to read while working, but i was totally wrong, sbb keje dia lebih kurang macam buruh gak laa, angkat kotak buku berat2, susun, kemas buku yang orang amek baca tak letak balik tempat dia, haduuhhh tension2. pikir duit dia je beb, haha, tu pun aku ponteng bape banyak hari. patut gaji dlm 1400 camtu, aku dpt 900, 1000 je. wakakaka.
i already know what i want to get for DH but the problem is money ah. dpt keje sebulan pun ok,tapi tah bagi tah tidak DH tu. aku boleh je nak mintak duit belanja kat DH smpi cukup nak beli menatang tuh, tapi tak stylo ahh duit tu laki bagi, patu kita bagi laki balik. boring! i want it to be dari titik peluh aku sendiri kasi puas hati lebih. manyak syiok itu macam.
oh oh and about me being pregnant, mmbr aku ckp mcm awal lagi nak pegi clinic. dia kata atleast wait for the signs or dlm 2months tu pegi la. aku dgr jela ckp dia kann because he and his wife are expecting too. DH kata nak cari government punye clinic utk follow up, sbb dia kata private punya mahal, takut nnt takde duit susah. aku tak kesa pun. janji aku ada anak. hahaha. i read in articles online that first 12 weeks are very risky, since miscarriages happen during early weeks of pregnancy. aku mintak doa jela kat tuhan that it sticks. ada rezeki ada, takde then tuhan lagi tau what's best for me.
lately aku rasa nak masak2, tapi macam tak best ah. sbb yang aku konfiden nak buat hanyalah simple dishes, slalu yang masak melayu ni mesti aku refer kat mak aku, sbb aku tak selesa masak tanpa advisorr ahahaha and yang layak jadi advisor tu mak aku je ok. makcik DH boleh je masak, dia ada gak ahh offer nak ajar tapi frankly speaking, i dont trust anyone elses recipes. i only like the way my mum cooks, orang lain punya tu klu sedap nasib la kann tapi aku tak terliur pun nak blajar cara nak masak dia macam mana, sbb aku tau klu mak aku masak pun sedap jugak. too bad for me, bak kata cousin aku, ni balasan utk aku that family aku taknak ckp baik2 dgn aku so aku tak kesa la. masak simple pun simple la. janji laki aku bole makan.
lepas ni nak masak tgk asian food channel jela. tak pun biar org lain masak. tak pun pegi makan luar. lagi sonang :D
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
I feel so excited!
omg omg i think im preggerssss. hahaha. i know they say we shouldnt get too excited about it, but then aku tak tahan ahh nak excited jugak! hahaha. i did the pregnancy test last week, the preggy line was faint, but today, gila babi clear, apart from the fact aku tak period lagi, mmg sah2 la aku pregnant kan. haha. bestnye!
dulu time sume orang tak tau aku da kawin, aku takut gila if my period were late, takut mengandung, takut kantoi kawin, tapi bila period tu mcm sedih gak laa sbb rasa macam aku ni takleh nak mengandung. tapi sekarang tidak lagii, haha always excited when im late. ni kira kali kedua late la lepas sume orang tau kawin ritu. haha, weiiii aku tak tau nak ckp camne ahh, tapi aku excited gila ahh. hahahahahahah.
DH got back from kemaman yesterday, and he told me stuff that happened during the court session. i dont blame them though. its only normal for people to act that way when they feel challenged, when they dont get what they want. aku ni plak anak dia, dia bela dari kecik sampai besar and suddenly im not there and dorang dah pikir that they wont ever get to see me again, so jadi macam ni la. aku sedih gakk dgr what happened, sbb tak patut dorang buat macam tu, kan menyusahkan diri. klu bincang baik2, menyusahkan diri ke? jerit2 ke ckp elok2 lagi sng? mana satu lagi sakit tekak? haha. apela, tu pun takleh pikir.
my grandfather tu dah tua, he should be staying at home, bukannya dibawak kehulu kehilir. I know they brought him because they think he can still use his influences on the police, mmg mula2 macam jadi la, tapi bila dah buat perangai mcmtu, and all the lies they told uncovered, polis pun jadi malas nak layan? my grandmother tu plak, takpayah nak tunjuk perangai. my mum always complained about her being a drama queen, and aku sendiri pernah alami perangai dia tu, so aku tak heran pun bila DH told me so.
DH did tell me my dad said
"saya nak jumpa anak saya skali ni je, nak tau dia betul2 nak kat faizz ni lagi ke tak, klu dia nak then dia boleh pergi la, sya tak hingin pun kat dia dah"
ok, so if you dont want me, why all the havoc?
aku ni, kaki menipu, so parents aku slalu ckp, klu menipu ni, cerita jadi tak consistent, and you can never win when you lie. even when you win at the beginning, youd still lose at the end, because Allah tu adil beb, especially when kita tunaikan kewajipan dia. well, sorry to dissapoint you la, tapi takda guna nak tipu dahh pasal bende ni, dulu ye la takut parents marah, skarang dah at its worst, aku tak kesah pun nak cerita whatever happened.aku sgt confident that what i did was right, what DH's parents did was right( they tried to talk to my parents about how to settle the matter) cuma style aku buat tu over the edge ahh, salah dari segi membelakangi mak bapak, berdosa, mmg parents aku ada hak nak marah, tapi klu DH' family nak settle baik2, perlu ke nak marah lagi? orang buat baik kita nak marah? cuba bayangkann , if they agreed to talk this over 2months ago, jadi ke kes2 macam ni? my parents tau agama, but bila marah dorang boleh plak lupa, yang agama tuntut to settle things baik2, not to resort to violence, unless bende yang nak disettlekan tu bende yang haram. now dah gadoh2 mcm ni, smpi DH's family mmbr yang tak salah pun kene, and now, its a very sad thing to hear, sbb aku macam nak gak ahh tunjuk anak aku kat mak aku ke kan, share being preggers with her ke, tapi because dorang buat macam ni, tak nak buat baik2, jadi takboleh langsung. aku tak tau la klu mak aku nak tau pun pasal aku mengandung, sbb family aku still pikir aku kawin tak sah, so they might just say yg anak aku ni anak haram, taknak ada kene mengene ke ape kan. tapi klu mak aku rasa2 macam nak tgk, aku bagi je beb, skarang pun aku boleh rasa excited klu mak aku tgk anak aku, it all depends on whats gona happen lepas ni. klu dorang still nak sama je mcm ni, susah la, DH konfem tak bagi punya ahh.
my cousin thinks im betraying my family. everone thinks i am. tah, aku tak rasa pun macam aku betray anyone. i think its only normal for things to happen this way. aku kawin lari, family marah. aku kene halau, aku ikut laki, sbb aku mmg kene ikut laki aku punn. how i did it was wrong. i admit. but im married, and trying to separate me from my husband betul ke? tak dosa ke? perlu ke nak tambah dosa yang ada?
'you dont see this as a serious matter because you dont know the sacrifices people made to win you back'
i know, believe me i do. jgn ingat aku dok belakang tabir aku tak tau. tapi bende ni dah byk terjadi, kawin lari. kes paling tinggi kat malaysia ni, kes kawin lari la. mcm mana parents org lain yang kawin lari tu boleh terima anak dia seadanya? jgn kata aku nak bandingkan dgn org lain. sbb bila aku buat, mesti ada org nak bandingkan. jgn nak kata, parents aku kene drag kehulu kehilir. they dragged themselves, and their parents skali. padahal masa mula2 tu, they didnt even have to get out from the house, DH's parents dah offer nak dtg nak bincang, bila dgr aku sebut pasal ayah aku ke mak aku ke DH tak berapa nak suka, tapi yela, dah kawin and nak berbaik pun nak mengamuk lagi? so what actually are the sacrifices they made to win me back? creating this havoc? or bringing tok and tah everywhere? or the travelling expenses? telling people that im stuped? kidnapped? guna pekida nak cari DH? ke mintak tolong kat orang nak selesaikan hal aku? guna ayat2 aku dari blog ni nak try and frame DH? aku bukan nak tunjuk pandai, tapi any rational person would consider bawak berbincang elok2, come to the best conclusion. itu aku rasa the best sacrifice la, tapi tak semua pikir macam tu. orang suma mungkin pikir aku tau nak senang je. aku susah hati gakk parents aku kene macam ni, tapi dah sape yang chose the hard way when the easy way dah sedia ada? if you want me, obviously you have to accept DH skali. if you dont want to see DH, then i can go back home alone, but for as long as DH agrees with la, if you dont want to see me at all, then just say you dont want to see me. sume boleh buat with no hassle klu cakap elok2.but please, jgn laaa cari dosa nak separate me from DH. i thought my mum would understand, but i cant blame her though, dia kene ikut my dad, so takpe la.
if my parents nak tau sgt wether i nak sgt ikut DH ke tak, mmg i nak ikut. he's my husband, and the father of my child, so mmg i ikut dia. tapi masalahnye bila aku ckp terang2 macam ni, dikatanya aku kene bomoh plak.. haih susah susah.
parents ttp parents beb, no denying that. yang paling penting, outsiders takpayah nak sebok tepi kain orang. pegi jaga family sendiri, as if you dont have enough trouble at home.
things like this happen all the time. so mmg aku tak rasa serious pun, because insyaallah laa bende ni boleh heal dgn masa.
for the time being, lets stay pregnant! hahahaha.
dulu time sume orang tak tau aku da kawin, aku takut gila if my period were late, takut mengandung, takut kantoi kawin, tapi bila period tu mcm sedih gak laa sbb rasa macam aku ni takleh nak mengandung. tapi sekarang tidak lagii, haha always excited when im late. ni kira kali kedua late la lepas sume orang tau kawin ritu. haha, weiiii aku tak tau nak ckp camne ahh, tapi aku excited gila ahh. hahahahahahah.
DH got back from kemaman yesterday, and he told me stuff that happened during the court session. i dont blame them though. its only normal for people to act that way when they feel challenged, when they dont get what they want. aku ni plak anak dia, dia bela dari kecik sampai besar and suddenly im not there and dorang dah pikir that they wont ever get to see me again, so jadi macam ni la. aku sedih gakk dgr what happened, sbb tak patut dorang buat macam tu, kan menyusahkan diri. klu bincang baik2, menyusahkan diri ke? jerit2 ke ckp elok2 lagi sng? mana satu lagi sakit tekak? haha. apela, tu pun takleh pikir.
my grandfather tu dah tua, he should be staying at home, bukannya dibawak kehulu kehilir. I know they brought him because they think he can still use his influences on the police, mmg mula2 macam jadi la, tapi bila dah buat perangai mcmtu, and all the lies they told uncovered, polis pun jadi malas nak layan? my grandmother tu plak, takpayah nak tunjuk perangai. my mum always complained about her being a drama queen, and aku sendiri pernah alami perangai dia tu, so aku tak heran pun bila DH told me so.
DH did tell me my dad said
"saya nak jumpa anak saya skali ni je, nak tau dia betul2 nak kat faizz ni lagi ke tak, klu dia nak then dia boleh pergi la, sya tak hingin pun kat dia dah"
ok, so if you dont want me, why all the havoc?
aku ni, kaki menipu, so parents aku slalu ckp, klu menipu ni, cerita jadi tak consistent, and you can never win when you lie. even when you win at the beginning, youd still lose at the end, because Allah tu adil beb, especially when kita tunaikan kewajipan dia. well, sorry to dissapoint you la, tapi takda guna nak tipu dahh pasal bende ni, dulu ye la takut parents marah, skarang dah at its worst, aku tak kesah pun nak cerita whatever happened.aku sgt confident that what i did was right, what DH's parents did was right( they tried to talk to my parents about how to settle the matter) cuma style aku buat tu over the edge ahh, salah dari segi membelakangi mak bapak, berdosa, mmg parents aku ada hak nak marah, tapi klu DH' family nak settle baik2, perlu ke nak marah lagi? orang buat baik kita nak marah? cuba bayangkann , if they agreed to talk this over 2months ago, jadi ke kes2 macam ni? my parents tau agama, but bila marah dorang boleh plak lupa, yang agama tuntut to settle things baik2, not to resort to violence, unless bende yang nak disettlekan tu bende yang haram. now dah gadoh2 mcm ni, smpi DH's family mmbr yang tak salah pun kene, and now, its a very sad thing to hear, sbb aku macam nak gak ahh tunjuk anak aku kat mak aku ke kan, share being preggers with her ke, tapi because dorang buat macam ni, tak nak buat baik2, jadi takboleh langsung. aku tak tau la klu mak aku nak tau pun pasal aku mengandung, sbb family aku still pikir aku kawin tak sah, so they might just say yg anak aku ni anak haram, taknak ada kene mengene ke ape kan. tapi klu mak aku rasa2 macam nak tgk, aku bagi je beb, skarang pun aku boleh rasa excited klu mak aku tgk anak aku, it all depends on whats gona happen lepas ni. klu dorang still nak sama je mcm ni, susah la, DH konfem tak bagi punya ahh.
my cousin thinks im betraying my family. everone thinks i am. tah, aku tak rasa pun macam aku betray anyone. i think its only normal for things to happen this way. aku kawin lari, family marah. aku kene halau, aku ikut laki, sbb aku mmg kene ikut laki aku punn. how i did it was wrong. i admit. but im married, and trying to separate me from my husband betul ke? tak dosa ke? perlu ke nak tambah dosa yang ada?
'you dont see this as a serious matter because you dont know the sacrifices people made to win you back'
i know, believe me i do. jgn ingat aku dok belakang tabir aku tak tau. tapi bende ni dah byk terjadi, kawin lari. kes paling tinggi kat malaysia ni, kes kawin lari la. mcm mana parents org lain yang kawin lari tu boleh terima anak dia seadanya? jgn kata aku nak bandingkan dgn org lain. sbb bila aku buat, mesti ada org nak bandingkan. jgn nak kata, parents aku kene drag kehulu kehilir. they dragged themselves, and their parents skali. padahal masa mula2 tu, they didnt even have to get out from the house, DH's parents dah offer nak dtg nak bincang, bila dgr aku sebut pasal ayah aku ke mak aku ke DH tak berapa nak suka, tapi yela, dah kawin and nak berbaik pun nak mengamuk lagi? so what actually are the sacrifices they made to win me back? creating this havoc? or bringing tok and tah everywhere? or the travelling expenses? telling people that im stuped? kidnapped? guna pekida nak cari DH? ke mintak tolong kat orang nak selesaikan hal aku? guna ayat2 aku dari blog ni nak try and frame DH? aku bukan nak tunjuk pandai, tapi any rational person would consider bawak berbincang elok2, come to the best conclusion. itu aku rasa the best sacrifice la, tapi tak semua pikir macam tu. orang suma mungkin pikir aku tau nak senang je. aku susah hati gakk parents aku kene macam ni, tapi dah sape yang chose the hard way when the easy way dah sedia ada? if you want me, obviously you have to accept DH skali. if you dont want to see DH, then i can go back home alone, but for as long as DH agrees with la, if you dont want to see me at all, then just say you dont want to see me. sume boleh buat with no hassle klu cakap elok2.but please, jgn laaa cari dosa nak separate me from DH. i thought my mum would understand, but i cant blame her though, dia kene ikut my dad, so takpe la.
if my parents nak tau sgt wether i nak sgt ikut DH ke tak, mmg i nak ikut. he's my husband, and the father of my child, so mmg i ikut dia. tapi masalahnye bila aku ckp terang2 macam ni, dikatanya aku kene bomoh plak.. haih susah susah.
parents ttp parents beb, no denying that. yang paling penting, outsiders takpayah nak sebok tepi kain orang. pegi jaga family sendiri, as if you dont have enough trouble at home.
things like this happen all the time. so mmg aku tak rasa serious pun, because insyaallah laa bende ni boleh heal dgn masa.
for the time being, lets stay pregnant! hahahaha.
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